Criptonite

Are you my criptonite?

In the face of all that gives me the strength that has made me who i am,
I wilt in your presence
I tell myself it is not happening,
Convinced that it is only an inconsistency

I find my strength when you are not around
Taking the time to be rational, pleading for a way out
Coming to decisions that on paper makes the most sense

I find courage within myself, letting you know how i feel,
Even though cowardly, its on the phone
I tell myself, I am doing the right thing,
Trying desperately to be non-chalant and uncaring

You pull up in front of my house
My pulse rate increasing, sensing i am loosing control already
In a moment of eye contact,
All my brave decisions seem stupid, my strength, being sapped out of me

I start to weaken as you hug me
Gently letting your hands rest on the back of my neck
I can smell you, feeling your warmth as you hold me
easing the resistance out of me, holding me the way i like

My brave front is struggling
The S on my chest is gradually wearing off
I know my resistance is futile as it becomes clear to me,
You are my Criptonite.