Finally, i have moved to my flat. Empty but for my giant bed. the rest of the furniture i have bought so far will arrive tomorrow morning. It really is a big flat and i love the location.
Yesterday, i decided to walk to the hypermarket (they are called that here, not super markets). When i got back to my tower, i looked like someone that had just been rescued for the atlantic. I was drenched in sweat. It was a bit windy but no matter how windy, it is always warm. The concierge in my building told me it get hotter by july, not looking forward to such strolls then.
My fight with the Dubai taxi drivers continue. I met one from Ethiopia, what a lovely guy but the Asian taxi drivers are so rude, i had to tell one off for raising his voice at me, what a prat. I have decided to start screaming back at them. My work colleagues told me i will get tired as most are like that. The battle line has been drawn!
I am off to Oman on tuesday for 2days. I have a workshop with a client in muscat. I hear muscat is cool. Look forward to it.
Sunday, 8 June 2008
Monday, 2 June 2008
Update
Every now and then i get the opportunity to let y'all know that i am ok.
Its been work, work, work for me and know play just yet.
I really dont know many places yet but i am sure that with time, i will be able to navigate
my way around Dubai.
See me see good thing, my left foot has now started its own palaver. Its not the big toe that is the problem but the joint between the toes and the foot. It hurts so much that it keeps me awake through the night. The underside of the foot hurts as well, unlike when the toe on my right foot was hurting.
What is going on? I desperately need for all this aches and pains to stop once and for all.
On the flip side, i went out furniture shopping over the weekend. I was able to buy a sofa, TV table, side table, center rug and a bed. That will do me for starters considering that all my stuff that i shipped across here are just going to arrive on the 25th of june.
I have to crack on with work now but hopefully, i will be back with more updates for y'all as i settle down to life here in Dubai.
Its been work, work, work for me and know play just yet.
I really dont know many places yet but i am sure that with time, i will be able to navigate
my way around Dubai.
See me see good thing, my left foot has now started its own palaver. Its not the big toe that is the problem but the joint between the toes and the foot. It hurts so much that it keeps me awake through the night. The underside of the foot hurts as well, unlike when the toe on my right foot was hurting.
What is going on? I desperately need for all this aches and pains to stop once and for all.
On the flip side, i went out furniture shopping over the weekend. I was able to buy a sofa, TV table, side table, center rug and a bed. That will do me for starters considering that all my stuff that i shipped across here are just going to arrive on the 25th of june.
I have to crack on with work now but hopefully, i will be back with more updates for y'all as i settle down to life here in Dubai.
Sunday, 25 May 2008
Sunday is monday
I must admit, it is a bit strange for me to get up on sunday morning and head to work
I am used to heading to church, anyway, i am sure i will adapt.
Finally, i have found a flat. It is in a brand new building with a spectacular view of the swimming pool. Yes, the building has its own swimming pool, lawn tennis courts, badmington court and gym.
I know i am going to have a blast.
The situation with my toe is not too good. I have excessive uric acid in my blood from eating too much protein or kidney not acting right. The doc came round and took urine and another blood sample. He called and told me everything was fine with the samples so kidney is ok but i need to treat the excess uric acid or it will cause damage in later life. I am on medication right now and i am sure its all good.
As usual, i will update you all of my progress in settling in Dubai and the amazing life i will be living.
I am used to heading to church, anyway, i am sure i will adapt.
Finally, i have found a flat. It is in a brand new building with a spectacular view of the swimming pool. Yes, the building has its own swimming pool, lawn tennis courts, badmington court and gym.
I know i am going to have a blast.
The situation with my toe is not too good. I have excessive uric acid in my blood from eating too much protein or kidney not acting right. The doc came round and took urine and another blood sample. He called and told me everything was fine with the samples so kidney is ok but i need to treat the excess uric acid or it will cause damage in later life. I am on medication right now and i am sure its all good.
As usual, i will update you all of my progress in settling in Dubai and the amazing life i will be living.
Tuesday, 20 May 2008
Taxi drivers
It has been a mixed bag so far.
I must admit, i am loving Dubai but the taxi drivers, boy do they get your blood boiling.
Everyone says it, they are a nightmare. They are like taxi drivers in Lagos,
except that this one cannot just charge you any fare, they are metered.
They tend to refuse to go short distances cos it is not worth their while and boy,
some of them are rude! Anyways, i will be dealing with them a lot in the next
few months until i sort out my driving license and a car. Not looking forward to that.
Two days after i arrived in Dubai, the big toe on my right foot started to ache, just out
of the blues. I did not hit it on anything so i thought it would take care of itself. It did
until this morning when i woke up and the pain was back with a vengance. It has a little swelling
and it is making wearing shoes difficult for me. I will have to see a doctor today as i refuse
to just leave it be again. The pain while walking is excruciating.
Have to go now, time to go back to the hotel, they will call out a doctor to come and see me.
I must admit, i am loving Dubai but the taxi drivers, boy do they get your blood boiling.
Everyone says it, they are a nightmare. They are like taxi drivers in Lagos,
except that this one cannot just charge you any fare, they are metered.
They tend to refuse to go short distances cos it is not worth their while and boy,
some of them are rude! Anyways, i will be dealing with them a lot in the next
few months until i sort out my driving license and a car. Not looking forward to that.
Two days after i arrived in Dubai, the big toe on my right foot started to ache, just out
of the blues. I did not hit it on anything so i thought it would take care of itself. It did
until this morning when i woke up and the pain was back with a vengance. It has a little swelling
and it is making wearing shoes difficult for me. I will have to see a doctor today as i refuse
to just leave it be again. The pain while walking is excruciating.
Have to go now, time to go back to the hotel, they will call out a doctor to come and see me.
Sunday, 18 May 2008
Dubai
People, Lanre has landed.
I am now in Dubai and i started work today. It has been quite interesting already and Dubai is all that you see on t.v. My hotel room that i am staying in at the moment, out of this world. It will be 7* in the U.K.
I don't have loads of time now to give you all gist but i will in due course.
I just thought i should let my people know that Lanre has landed in Dubai.
I am now in Dubai and i started work today. It has been quite interesting already and Dubai is all that you see on t.v. My hotel room that i am staying in at the moment, out of this world. It will be 7* in the U.K.
I don't have loads of time now to give you all gist but i will in due course.
I just thought i should let my people know that Lanre has landed in Dubai.
Friday, 9 May 2008
Grief
I had been speaking to a friend who went through/experience some grief lately. In speaking to this friend, i was able to detect the stages of grief in my friend. Denial, anger, bargaining, depression and then grieving.
Many of us have gone through some pain either through relationship or lose of loved one.
I recently looked at my adult life, to when i suffered some grief and i can honestly tell you that i went through all the five stages listed above. I denied the situation, got angry with the way things paned out, tried bargaining with God, promising to change my ways if he would reverse the situation and when that did not happen, i got depressed. The final stages or purging stage was the grieving stage. This was when i finally faced up to the truth and allowed the pain to take its toll and leave.
I have spoken to people that have gone through different degrees of grief and what i have learnt is people deal with grief in different ways but one thing that is constant is the five stages is always almost present.
Locking oneself away from dealing with grief or looking for excuses to assist us in finding a place where we can hide from the reality of our grief is never helpful. While your story will help you find a cave to hide your grief, it never helps you get over it.
Many of us have gone through some pain either through relationship or lose of loved one.
I recently looked at my adult life, to when i suffered some grief and i can honestly tell you that i went through all the five stages listed above. I denied the situation, got angry with the way things paned out, tried bargaining with God, promising to change my ways if he would reverse the situation and when that did not happen, i got depressed. The final stages or purging stage was the grieving stage. This was when i finally faced up to the truth and allowed the pain to take its toll and leave.
I have spoken to people that have gone through different degrees of grief and what i have learnt is people deal with grief in different ways but one thing that is constant is the five stages is always almost present.
Locking oneself away from dealing with grief or looking for excuses to assist us in finding a place where we can hide from the reality of our grief is never helpful. While your story will help you find a cave to hide your grief, it never helps you get over it.
Thursday, 8 May 2008
Manual Labour
Today is manual labour day.
I had stopped manual labour a long time ago
but today, i have to mow the lawn in my front
and back garden.
This means that i will be free to do stuff on the inside of the house tomorrow.
I will be home all day packing up all the rest of my stuff,
Marking up the things that my friends want to take
And the things that i will be leaving in the house.
Drowning under stuff to do!
I had stopped manual labour a long time ago
but today, i have to mow the lawn in my front
and back garden.
This means that i will be free to do stuff on the inside of the house tomorrow.
I will be home all day packing up all the rest of my stuff,
Marking up the things that my friends want to take
And the things that i will be leaving in the house.
Drowning under stuff to do!
Wednesday, 7 May 2008
Inner peace
I had an interesting conversation with someone a few days ago
During that conversation, i was told that she got to a place in her life after some
days of agony, where she felt at peace with herself.
I was pleased to hear that and i hope it remains that way.
I have had moments of emotional torture over things that have happened in my life
In most of those moments, i have had to confront the situation to be able to have peace
Some of the times i have made peace, in other times, it did not work out the way i planned
But through it all, i trust God enough to know that where i was wrong and asked for HIS
forgiveness, i was forgiven and only hope that those i had wronged had found it in their
hearts to forgive me as well.
During that conversation, i was told that she got to a place in her life after some
days of agony, where she felt at peace with herself.
I was pleased to hear that and i hope it remains that way.
I have had moments of emotional torture over things that have happened in my life
In most of those moments, i have had to confront the situation to be able to have peace
Some of the times i have made peace, in other times, it did not work out the way i planned
But through it all, i trust God enough to know that where i was wrong and asked for HIS
forgiveness, i was forgiven and only hope that those i had wronged had found it in their
hearts to forgive me as well.
Tuesday, 6 May 2008
Update
I will endeavour to keep you guys posted on my relocation.
I have packed all my clothes and put aside the ones that are being sent to the charity shops
I have packed all my paper-work together and i should be packing my cd's
I still have all my shoes to pack, that might turn out to be a nightmare. I think i will be giving away most of them to charity.
Once i am done upstairs, i will come downstairs. This is where the most palaver is.
I should be giving away most things in my house, i have friends already tagging stuff they want. As a matter of fact, one painting has gone already.
Stay tuned, will keep you posted.
I have packed all my clothes and put aside the ones that are being sent to the charity shops
I have packed all my paper-work together and i should be packing my cd's
I still have all my shoes to pack, that might turn out to be a nightmare. I think i will be giving away most of them to charity.
Once i am done upstairs, i will come downstairs. This is where the most palaver is.
I should be giving away most things in my house, i have friends already tagging stuff they want. As a matter of fact, one painting has gone already.
Stay tuned, will keep you posted.
Saturday, 3 May 2008
Gratitude
5 Things i am most thankful for
1. Thankful to God that i wake up every morning as some people go to bed and do not wake up
the next day, i have a roof over my head and food to eat. I am healthy and God watches over
my coming and going.
2. Thankful for the family i have. They are loving, supportive and prayerful.
3. Thankful for the continuous increase in my life. God has been good to me and he continues to
bless me.
4. Thankful for the people i can call my friends.
5. I am thankful for all the experiences i have gone through. Whether good or bad, they have
made me the man i am today.
5 People (non-family) i am most grateful for
1. Uche Okike. My closest friend in secondary school. He would share everything he had with
me, thinking at all times about my welfare. Okykes, thank you.
2. Henry Aluede. I met Eji-raster while i was in university of Lagos and i made a friend for
life. He would give the shirt off his back to me come rain or sunshine. He is a friend that
asked for nothing in return.
3. Mr&Mrs Babatope. Thank you for the support when i needed it most. I will forever be
indepted to you and your family.
4. Widad Sheik-Fareed. What can i say about this woman? She gave everything to me and
for me. There will never be words that will describe my eternal gratitude. You truly are
an angel. Thank you very much from the bottom of my heart.
5. Taiwo Ogunfuwa (T.Y). Few people fit the description of guardian angel. You have given so
much to me and to many others so that we can get on in life. A truly selfless man.
I am honoured to have met you.
1. Thankful to God that i wake up every morning as some people go to bed and do not wake up
the next day, i have a roof over my head and food to eat. I am healthy and God watches over
my coming and going.
2. Thankful for the family i have. They are loving, supportive and prayerful.
3. Thankful for the continuous increase in my life. God has been good to me and he continues to
bless me.
4. Thankful for the people i can call my friends.
5. I am thankful for all the experiences i have gone through. Whether good or bad, they have
made me the man i am today.
5 People (non-family) i am most grateful for
1. Uche Okike. My closest friend in secondary school. He would share everything he had with
me, thinking at all times about my welfare. Okykes, thank you.
2. Henry Aluede. I met Eji-raster while i was in university of Lagos and i made a friend for
life. He would give the shirt off his back to me come rain or sunshine. He is a friend that
asked for nothing in return.
3. Mr&Mrs Babatope. Thank you for the support when i needed it most. I will forever be
indepted to you and your family.
4. Widad Sheik-Fareed. What can i say about this woman? She gave everything to me and
for me. There will never be words that will describe my eternal gratitude. You truly are
an angel. Thank you very much from the bottom of my heart.
5. Taiwo Ogunfuwa (T.Y). Few people fit the description of guardian angel. You have given so
much to me and to many others so that we can get on in life. A truly selfless man.
I am honoured to have met you.
Friday, 2 May 2008
Victim Syndrome
My father did this when i was a child
My mother did this when i was a child
My siblings got this while we were kids
My ex boyfriend did this to me while we were dating
The excuses are many and varied and unfortunately, the thing in vogue right now
It is ok to blame the rest of the world for the way we are
Or the way we do things and fail miserably
Nowadays, it is fashionable to play the victim
Too many people wear that badge with pride, excusing their behaviour
At 15, you are a victim. At 25, you are bodering on irresponsible.
The yoruba people have a saying:
It falls upon you to give birth to yourself again.
we have become a world that seeks excuses for everything,
Nobody wanting to take full responsibility for their actions.
I have met people who have been real victims in their lives
But refuse to wear the victim badge. The have gone about their lives
with dignity, taking full responsibility for the things they do and say and
my hat goes off to them.
On the other hand, there are those that have gone through the same thing
That most of us have been through but look for a way to make it more than it is.
They excuse their bad behaviours and rotten attitude with Victimitis.
It is time people start growing up, taking full responsibility for their own actions
and stop leaning on excuses to continue to perpetrate disgusting habits.
What is wrong is wrong and as an adult, it is time to pull yourself together.
My mother did this when i was a child
My siblings got this while we were kids
My ex boyfriend did this to me while we were dating
The excuses are many and varied and unfortunately, the thing in vogue right now
It is ok to blame the rest of the world for the way we are
Or the way we do things and fail miserably
Nowadays, it is fashionable to play the victim
Too many people wear that badge with pride, excusing their behaviour
At 15, you are a victim. At 25, you are bodering on irresponsible.
The yoruba people have a saying:
It falls upon you to give birth to yourself again.
we have become a world that seeks excuses for everything,
Nobody wanting to take full responsibility for their actions.
I have met people who have been real victims in their lives
But refuse to wear the victim badge. The have gone about their lives
with dignity, taking full responsibility for the things they do and say and
my hat goes off to them.
On the other hand, there are those that have gone through the same thing
That most of us have been through but look for a way to make it more than it is.
They excuse their bad behaviours and rotten attitude with Victimitis.
It is time people start growing up, taking full responsibility for their own actions
and stop leaning on excuses to continue to perpetrate disgusting habits.
What is wrong is wrong and as an adult, it is time to pull yourself together.
Thursday, 1 May 2008
This much to do
It is quite upsetting when you put your heart and soul into something
And it all falls apart before your eyes
I was in the process of writing some serious ***t about stuff that i left behind
I guess i am more pissed off than i thought but i have resolved to get over it
I should be concentrating on new things, new people or old people
I have as of today been given the confirmation of the hotel i will be staying in for my first month in Dubai.
I have my flight booking as well and i am looking forward to leaving this place now
Now, i have everything in place. I have sold my car and my house is in the hands of the estate agent. I have started packing my things and boy do i have lots of junk.
Wish i had six hands
I have so much to do, sorting it out just by myself is going to be a nightmare
And it all falls apart before your eyes
I was in the process of writing some serious ***t about stuff that i left behind
I guess i am more pissed off than i thought but i have resolved to get over it
I should be concentrating on new things, new people or old people
I have as of today been given the confirmation of the hotel i will be staying in for my first month in Dubai.
I have my flight booking as well and i am looking forward to leaving this place now
Now, i have everything in place. I have sold my car and my house is in the hands of the estate agent. I have started packing my things and boy do i have lots of junk.
Wish i had six hands
I have so much to do, sorting it out just by myself is going to be a nightmare
Wednesday, 30 April 2008
As it happens
I was very close to sinking into the sewers today
I got some text messages that sent my blood boiling
But i chose not to react as i was being pushed to
I just reminded myself that it was a case of mind over matter
I do not mind cos it does not matter.
Anyways, my final departure date from the UK has been confirmed
I will be flying out on the 15th of May.
These are exciting times and i cannot wait to leave so much behind me
I will keep my people posted
I got some text messages that sent my blood boiling
But i chose not to react as i was being pushed to
I just reminded myself that it was a case of mind over matter
I do not mind cos it does not matter.
Anyways, my final departure date from the UK has been confirmed
I will be flying out on the 15th of May.
These are exciting times and i cannot wait to leave so much behind me
I will keep my people posted
Tuesday, 29 April 2008
30 Years on....
Today marks 30yrs that my mother passed away
It has been an emotional day so far
To those of you that i have spoken to today and
I have been distant
Been quick to dismiss off the phone
I have snapped at
And been mean to,
I am sorry. Please accept my apology, its been one of those days.
It has been an emotional day so far
To those of you that i have spoken to today and
I have been distant
Been quick to dismiss off the phone
I have snapped at
And been mean to,
I am sorry. Please accept my apology, its been one of those days.
Monday, 28 April 2008
Mistakes
There are things we do in life that are mistakes
Some of them we are able to rectify,
Some of them we live with the consequences
Then, there are those things we do that we want to call mistakes but they are not
They are deliberate actions born from either the conscious or the subconscious
If a man consciously raises his hand to strike a woman,
There should be no mistaking that action
It was deliberate and might possibly happen again
That is not to say it will, and forgiving a one time mistake is ok,
The second time, it is called a habit and a habit is difficult to get rid of
It is those second time actions or repeat actions that tell you exactly what to expect
As human beings, we all have the first mistake or are on the receiving end of the first mistake
Most of us have the spirit of forgiveness and we use it
At that moment, we expect that and forgive on the understanding that it was a mistake,
Unfortunately for some of us, that same action happens again.
At this time, please understand something, it is a habit.
For those in relationships, this should be the point where we pause
Take a moment to review this situation and make a judgement
Can you live with this habit or not
I have heard many friends complain after marriage that one partner does one thing constantly
Many marriages have ended in divorces over habits
The problem with habits is that they may seem to be little things before a relationship,
But during a relationship, they grow a life of their own
All of us see these habits before we commit to relationships
We either chose consciously or subconsciously to accept them, ignore them or walk away
If you choose to accept them, it means that you have decided that it is something you can handle
If you choose to ignore them, then you will meet the consequences later in the future
If you choose to walk away, you have admitted to yourself that it is something you cant handle
And in that process, you have spared in the minimum two people,
A future of potential heartaches.
Some of them we are able to rectify,
Some of them we live with the consequences
Then, there are those things we do that we want to call mistakes but they are not
They are deliberate actions born from either the conscious or the subconscious
If a man consciously raises his hand to strike a woman,
There should be no mistaking that action
It was deliberate and might possibly happen again
That is not to say it will, and forgiving a one time mistake is ok,
The second time, it is called a habit and a habit is difficult to get rid of
It is those second time actions or repeat actions that tell you exactly what to expect
As human beings, we all have the first mistake or are on the receiving end of the first mistake
Most of us have the spirit of forgiveness and we use it
At that moment, we expect that and forgive on the understanding that it was a mistake,
Unfortunately for some of us, that same action happens again.
At this time, please understand something, it is a habit.
For those in relationships, this should be the point where we pause
Take a moment to review this situation and make a judgement
Can you live with this habit or not
I have heard many friends complain after marriage that one partner does one thing constantly
Many marriages have ended in divorces over habits
The problem with habits is that they may seem to be little things before a relationship,
But during a relationship, they grow a life of their own
All of us see these habits before we commit to relationships
We either chose consciously or subconsciously to accept them, ignore them or walk away
If you choose to accept them, it means that you have decided that it is something you can handle
If you choose to ignore them, then you will meet the consequences later in the future
If you choose to walk away, you have admitted to yourself that it is something you cant handle
And in that process, you have spared in the minimum two people,
A future of potential heartaches.
Sunday, 27 April 2008
A lot to do
My people, time has crept up on me and now i realise how much i have to do
I have to shut the door on a few things and look forward,
Concentrate on the things that will be my future now and look forward
I have to put my car up for sale like yesterday
Need to sort out my house
Need to pack my belongings
Need to sort out all my relevant documents
Need to, need to, need to....
Quite a lot to do.
I have to shut the door on a few things and look forward,
Concentrate on the things that will be my future now and look forward
I have to put my car up for sale like yesterday
Need to sort out my house
Need to pack my belongings
Need to sort out all my relevant documents
Need to, need to, need to....
Quite a lot to do.
Saturday, 26 April 2008
Raw
Recently went through some emotional trauma
At the moment it happened, i was really hurt and devastated
It was the most humiliating of experience that nobody deserves
I could stay mad but i choose not to be
God has delivered me from a potentially damaging future
So i am not mad at you
Listen and heed my advise
Either go back and sort things out or give yourself a lot more space
I wish you all the best in your future endeavours
At the moment it happened, i was really hurt and devastated
It was the most humiliating of experience that nobody deserves
I could stay mad but i choose not to be
God has delivered me from a potentially damaging future
So i am not mad at you
Listen and heed my advise
Either go back and sort things out or give yourself a lot more space
I wish you all the best in your future endeavours
Thursday, 24 April 2008
Question
This is for my sistas to answer...
Where do you draw the line between a man telling you what to do and a man that just cares?
Is it possible that a man can offer an opinion without dictating?
How do we as men offer an opinion without it turning to us being dictatorial?
Can we be allowed to be men without you guys being afraid to handle it?
A man's instinct is to protect what is his
Letting a man be a man means that you let him protect you as well
Where do you draw the line between a man telling you what to do and a man that just cares?
Is it possible that a man can offer an opinion without dictating?
How do we as men offer an opinion without it turning to us being dictatorial?
Can we be allowed to be men without you guys being afraid to handle it?
A man's instinct is to protect what is his
Letting a man be a man means that you let him protect you as well
Since i've been away
I have been away for a good minute and a few things have happened
I am still in the process of finding an estate agent to give my house to
I have 4 appointments this afternnon
fingers crossed
I was also in Edinburgh for a few days
Edinburgh is a wonderful place with a lot of history
To think that i have been to Edinburgh about 15times but never saw all the places i saw
I would travel from the airport to the building site, have my meetings and drive straight back to the airport.
It also helped that my companion had been to Edibburgh as a tourist so she knew the nooks and crany of the town. She also introduced me to this amazing restuatant "Jimmy Chong's". It is an all you can eat place and the food is out of this world. she had to ban me from going back there a third night so i might be going back there for another night of gluttony!
I am still in the process of finding an estate agent to give my house to
I have 4 appointments this afternnon
fingers crossed
I was also in Edinburgh for a few days
Edinburgh is a wonderful place with a lot of history
To think that i have been to Edinburgh about 15times but never saw all the places i saw
I would travel from the airport to the building site, have my meetings and drive straight back to the airport.
It also helped that my companion had been to Edibburgh as a tourist so she knew the nooks and crany of the town. She also introduced me to this amazing restuatant "Jimmy Chong's". It is an all you can eat place and the food is out of this world. she had to ban me from going back there a third night so i might be going back there for another night of gluttony!
Thursday, 17 April 2008
Estate agents
The past 24hrs have been quite stressful. I have had to see 11 estate agents, discussing the possibility of renting out my house and all the other things that surround that.
I never new that renting out a property in the UK is so stressful. Your house has to comply with so many regulations and if you are leaving the house furnished, things like you sofa and bed have to have a fire safety certificate or tag from the manufacturers. There are tax exempt forms to fill ass well as notifying your mortgage lender and insurance companies.
On top of all that, you have the estate agents fees to deal with. These guys are criminals, ready to rinse you of your money if you let them without having the liability for anything. They charge you a commission on the rental value every month for the priviledge of "managing" your property. They in fact will be doing nothing!
I never new that renting out a property in the UK is so stressful. Your house has to comply with so many regulations and if you are leaving the house furnished, things like you sofa and bed have to have a fire safety certificate or tag from the manufacturers. There are tax exempt forms to fill ass well as notifying your mortgage lender and insurance companies.
On top of all that, you have the estate agents fees to deal with. These guys are criminals, ready to rinse you of your money if you let them without having the liability for anything. They charge you a commission on the rental value every month for the priviledge of "managing" your property. They in fact will be doing nothing!
Monday, 14 April 2008
How now?
My people how body? i just wan hail my people dem.
Its been a while since i said hello to you all
so here goes; Hi, i have missed a few of you and will be getting in touch soon
A lot has happened in the past few days that i need to tell y'all about.
I'd be right back though.
Its been a while since i said hello to you all
so here goes; Hi, i have missed a few of you and will be getting in touch soon
A lot has happened in the past few days that i need to tell y'all about.
I'd be right back though.
Sunday, 13 April 2008
Friday, 11 April 2008
Feelings
I am feeling very upset, angry, misunderstood, unappreciated, disrespected, tired, deflated, defeated, unhappy, trodden on.
I want to go home, lock my door and just lie down in the dark.
I want to go home, lock my door and just lie down in the dark.
Thursday, 10 April 2008
Give me strength Lord
Holy Spirit
Give me strength
Not to be stronger than my brother
But to fight my greatest enemy; myself
Give me strength
Not to be stronger than my brother
But to fight my greatest enemy; myself
Friend
Among the great and glorious gifts our heavenly Father sends,
Is the gift of understanding that we find in a loving friend,
For in this world of trouble that is filled with anxious care,
Everybody needs a friend in whom they're free to share,
The little secret heartaches that lay heavy on their mind,
We seek our true and trusted friend in the knowledge that we'll find,
A heart that's sympathetic and an understanding mind.
Is the gift of understanding that we find in a loving friend,
For in this world of trouble that is filled with anxious care,
Everybody needs a friend in whom they're free to share,
The little secret heartaches that lay heavy on their mind,
We seek our true and trusted friend in the knowledge that we'll find,
A heart that's sympathetic and an understanding mind.
What is this 'we' thing?
What is the meaning of "we"?
Now people please dont laugh and this is not me going off on a tangent
But when does you and i become a we?
Not the nintendo wii so please be serious
I am struggling to understand when "we" becomes applicable and what responsibilities come with this "we" ***t!
Is "we" practical and how much of ones self should be given over to this "we" dude!
I need to understand if "we" has boundaries, does it allow for individuality and if it lends itself to being totally selfless.
I desperately need honest answers as i possibly have the meaning of "we" totally wrong.
Now people please dont laugh and this is not me going off on a tangent
But when does you and i become a we?
Not the nintendo wii so please be serious
I am struggling to understand when "we" becomes applicable and what responsibilities come with this "we" ***t!
Is "we" practical and how much of ones self should be given over to this "we" dude!
I need to understand if "we" has boundaries, does it allow for individuality and if it lends itself to being totally selfless.
I desperately need honest answers as i possibly have the meaning of "we" totally wrong.
Wednesday, 9 April 2008
Closing in
It hit me today that friday will be my last day with this company.
I have had some fun times here and at the same time, had some not so fun times.
As a christian, i have to say that God ordered my steps to this place
It has been a happy place for me and i was blessed with bosses that remembered they were human beings as we are.
I have also made friends with some colleagues here and i will miss them
Things have changed in the company recently with the redundancy situation and with the comany being bought by another company but the bosses have tried to keep most of the culture associated with the company.
I was a bit sad having to break the news to my boss as he really wanted me to stay but this is an opportunity i could not pass up. Its not about the money cos if it was, i would have accepted the first offer that came to me. it was a crazy offer thrown at me but it would mean that i would have done my master degree for nothing as it would stall my continuous growth in my area of specialization.
The company i will be working with are probably the biggest in my area of specialization and they do the most amazing projects that would put me in another stratosphere in terms of work experience.
As the time draws closer for me to move, i want to thank those of you that have been a blessing in my life. Please do not stop praying for me as i would need it. I will definately still be in constant touch with you all and to Juanita, know that i will always be on the other end of the phone anytime of the day and only an extra couple of miles away so i will always be around for as long as you want me to be.
I have had some fun times here and at the same time, had some not so fun times.
As a christian, i have to say that God ordered my steps to this place
It has been a happy place for me and i was blessed with bosses that remembered they were human beings as we are.
I have also made friends with some colleagues here and i will miss them
Things have changed in the company recently with the redundancy situation and with the comany being bought by another company but the bosses have tried to keep most of the culture associated with the company.
I was a bit sad having to break the news to my boss as he really wanted me to stay but this is an opportunity i could not pass up. Its not about the money cos if it was, i would have accepted the first offer that came to me. it was a crazy offer thrown at me but it would mean that i would have done my master degree for nothing as it would stall my continuous growth in my area of specialization.
The company i will be working with are probably the biggest in my area of specialization and they do the most amazing projects that would put me in another stratosphere in terms of work experience.
As the time draws closer for me to move, i want to thank those of you that have been a blessing in my life. Please do not stop praying for me as i would need it. I will definately still be in constant touch with you all and to Juanita, know that i will always be on the other end of the phone anytime of the day and only an extra couple of miles away so i will always be around for as long as you want me to be.
Tuesday, 8 April 2008
whats going on?
Questions, thoughts, thoughts, questions,
More questions, more questions, thoughts
Why is my head not clear?
More questions, more questions, thoughts
Why is my head not clear?
Are you one of the great ones?
I have recently learnt a new phrase.
As a man, you are only allowed three great women in your lifetime
For me, the great women in my life are:-
My mother - the first great woman in my life,
The second great woman i will keep to myself
Are you the third one?
As a man, you are only allowed three great women in your lifetime
For me, the great women in my life are:-
My mother - the first great woman in my life,
The second great woman i will keep to myself
Are you the third one?
Monday, 7 April 2008
Questions, questions!
Questions,questions.
What stops you from asking questions face to face?
Until fear is turned into Faith and timidity into Confidence can one be deemed to be called a MAN!
Anonymous, Thank you for your comment. I will however like to correct your understanding of my situation.
I have every faith in the things i do cos i know my steps are ordered of God and contrary to most people's idea of what a man should be, it is not in anyway a sign of weakeness for a man to go through moments of doubt in his head. It only goes to show that contrary to the over subscribed idea that men are emotionless bone heads who think of nothing but the next girl to sleep with or next can of beer, we do have moments that we ponder and let our thoughts wonder.
So the next time you are in doubt as to the difference between being a man and being timid, check this, my pondering or thinking is a way of me purging my head of the negatives working their way around. those that know me will tell you that timid is the last word that describes me.
Have a nice day.
What stops you from asking questions face to face?
Until fear is turned into Faith and timidity into Confidence can one be deemed to be called a MAN!
Anonymous, Thank you for your comment. I will however like to correct your understanding of my situation.
I have every faith in the things i do cos i know my steps are ordered of God and contrary to most people's idea of what a man should be, it is not in anyway a sign of weakeness for a man to go through moments of doubt in his head. It only goes to show that contrary to the over subscribed idea that men are emotionless bone heads who think of nothing but the next girl to sleep with or next can of beer, we do have moments that we ponder and let our thoughts wonder.
So the next time you are in doubt as to the difference between being a man and being timid, check this, my pondering or thinking is a way of me purging my head of the negatives working their way around. those that know me will tell you that timid is the last word that describes me.
Have a nice day.
Sunday, 6 April 2008
Are you?
Are you floating on the clouds like i am
Or are your feet on solid ground
Are you lost in thots about me all day
Or are you too preoccupied with other things to think about me
Do you feel me and want to be around me all the time
Or do you forget i exist
Do you long to be in my arms once again
Or does your teddy bear do a better job
Do you want me lying next to you
Or is it cramped for space on the bed with two?
When you look into my eyes, do you feel the affection
Or are they too bloodshot to reveal my desires
Do you want to kiss me again
Or are my lips too dry to stir any emotions in you
Is your heart growing any fonder of me
Or is this wishful thinking on my part
Are you that person for me
Or just the person for this season?
Or are your feet on solid ground
Are you lost in thots about me all day
Or are you too preoccupied with other things to think about me
Do you feel me and want to be around me all the time
Or do you forget i exist
Do you long to be in my arms once again
Or does your teddy bear do a better job
Do you want me lying next to you
Or is it cramped for space on the bed with two?
When you look into my eyes, do you feel the affection
Or are they too bloodshot to reveal my desires
Do you want to kiss me again
Or are my lips too dry to stir any emotions in you
Is your heart growing any fonder of me
Or is this wishful thinking on my part
Are you that person for me
Or just the person for this season?
Saturday, 5 April 2008
A beautiful day
Yesterday, i had a brilliant day. Technically, i am still having a wonderful day by proxy cos i keep reminiscing about yesterday.
It felt like a defining moment; a watershed if you like
I wish i could tell you all about it but i cant, no, i dont want to
Still smoothening out the rough edges but even the rough edges dont seem to be an issue.
I went to Bournemouth for the first time yesterday and i gotta say, its a beautiful place.
I'll be back soon.......
It felt like a defining moment; a watershed if you like
I wish i could tell you all about it but i cant, no, i dont want to
Still smoothening out the rough edges but even the rough edges dont seem to be an issue.
I went to Bournemouth for the first time yesterday and i gotta say, its a beautiful place.
I'll be back soon.......
Tuesday, 1 April 2008
In my moment of thots...
People spend a lifetime searching for hapiness; looking for love
They chase idle dreams; addictions and even other people
hoping to fill the emptiness that plaques them
the irony is that the only place you ever needed to search was within you
Never assume you've got lots of time to do those important things
though the future seems to stretch far.
Maybe you intend to scale those heights far away
but what matters most - is the hill you've got to climb today
Face your past and leave it there
handle your present with conviction
prepare for your future without fear
Hold on to faith in what is right and drop your fears
Dance like nobody is watching
dream like you will live forever
live like you are going to die tomorrow
and let your heart love like it is never going to hurt.
They chase idle dreams; addictions and even other people
hoping to fill the emptiness that plaques them
the irony is that the only place you ever needed to search was within you
Never assume you've got lots of time to do those important things
though the future seems to stretch far.
Maybe you intend to scale those heights far away
but what matters most - is the hill you've got to climb today
Face your past and leave it there
handle your present with conviction
prepare for your future without fear
Hold on to faith in what is right and drop your fears
Dance like nobody is watching
dream like you will live forever
live like you are going to die tomorrow
and let your heart love like it is never going to hurt.
Little moments of joy
Little Moments Of Joy
Twenty years ago, I drove a cab for a living. It was a cowboy’s life, a life for someone who wanted no boss. What I didn’t realize was that it was also a ministry.
Because I drove the night shift, my cab became a moving confessional. Passengers climbed in, sat behind me in total anonymity, and told me about their lives. I encountered people whose lives amazed me, ennobled me, made me laugh and weep.
But none touched me more than a woman I picked up late one August night.
I was responding to a call from a small brick fourplex in a quiet part of town. I assumed I was being sent to pick up some partiers, or someone who had just had a fight with a lover, or a worker heading to an early shift at some factory for the industrial part of town.
When I arrived at 2:30 a.m., the building was dark except for a single light in a ground floor window. Under these circumstances, many drivers would just honk once or twice, wait a minute, then drive away. But I had seen too many impoverished people who depended on taxis as their only means of transportation. Unless a situation smelled of danger, I always went to the door. This passenger might be someone who needs my assistance, I reasoned to myself. So I walked to the door and knocked.
“Just a minute,” answered a frail, elderly voice. I could hear something being dragged across the floor. After a long pause, the door opened. A small woman in her 80s stood before me. She was wearing a print dress and a pillbox hat with a veil pinned on it, like somebody out of a 1940’s movie.
By her side was a small nylon suitcase. The apartment looked as if no one had lived in it for years. All the furniture was covered with sheets. There were no clocks on the walls, no knickknacks or utensils on the counters. In the corner was a cardboard box filled with photos and glassware.
“Would you carry my bag out to the car?” she said.
I took the suitcase to the cab, then returned to assist the woman. She took my arm and we walked slowly toward the curb. She kept thanking me for my kindness.
“It’s nothing,” I told her. “I just try to treat my passengers the way I would want my mother treated.”
“Oh, you’re such a good boy,” she said.
When we got in the cab, she gave me an address, then asked, “Could you drive through downtown?”
“It’s not the shortest way,” I answered quickly.
“Oh, I don’t mind,” she said. “I’m in no hurry. I’m on my way to a hospice.”
I looked in the rear view mirror. Her eyes were glistening. “I don’t have any family left,” she continued. “The doctor says I don’t have very long.”
I quietly reached over and shut off the meter. “What route would you like me to take?” I asked.
For the next two hours, we drove through the city. She showed me the building where she had once worked as an elevator operator. We drove through the neighborhood where she and her husband had lived when they were newlyweds. She had me pull up in front of a furniture warehouse that had once been a ballroom where she had gone dancing as a girl. Sometimes she’d ask me to slow in front of a particular building or corner and would sit staring into the darkness, saying nothing.
As the first hint of sun was creasing the horizon, she suddenly said, “I’m tired. Let’s go now.”
We drove in silence to the address she had given me. It was a low building, like a small convalescent home, with a driveway that passed under a portico. Two orderlies came out to the cab as soon as we pulled up. They were solicitous and intent, watching her every move. They must have been expecting her. I opened the trunk and took the small suitcase to the door. The woman was already seated in a wheelchair.
“How much do I owe you?” she asked, reaching into her purse.
“Nothing,” I said.
“You have to make a living,” she answered.
“There are other passengers,” I responded.
Almost without thinking, I bent and gave her a hug. She held onto me tightly.
“You gave an old woman a little moment of joy,” she said. “Thank you.”
I squeezed her hand, then walked into the dim morning light. Behind me, a door shut. It was the sound of the closing of a life.
I didn’t pick up any more passengers that shift. I drove aimlessly, lost in thought. For the rest of that day, I could hardly talk. What if that woman had gotten an angry driver, or one who was impatient at the end his shift? What if I had refused to take the run, or had honked once, then driven away?
On a quick review, I don’t think that I have done anything more important in my life. We’re conditioned to think that our lives revolve around great moments. But great moments often catch us unaware–beautifully wrapped in what others may consider a small one.
People may not remember exactly what you did, or what you said, …but they will always remember how you made them feel.
Twenty years ago, I drove a cab for a living. It was a cowboy’s life, a life for someone who wanted no boss. What I didn’t realize was that it was also a ministry.
Because I drove the night shift, my cab became a moving confessional. Passengers climbed in, sat behind me in total anonymity, and told me about their lives. I encountered people whose lives amazed me, ennobled me, made me laugh and weep.
But none touched me more than a woman I picked up late one August night.
I was responding to a call from a small brick fourplex in a quiet part of town. I assumed I was being sent to pick up some partiers, or someone who had just had a fight with a lover, or a worker heading to an early shift at some factory for the industrial part of town.
When I arrived at 2:30 a.m., the building was dark except for a single light in a ground floor window. Under these circumstances, many drivers would just honk once or twice, wait a minute, then drive away. But I had seen too many impoverished people who depended on taxis as their only means of transportation. Unless a situation smelled of danger, I always went to the door. This passenger might be someone who needs my assistance, I reasoned to myself. So I walked to the door and knocked.
“Just a minute,” answered a frail, elderly voice. I could hear something being dragged across the floor. After a long pause, the door opened. A small woman in her 80s stood before me. She was wearing a print dress and a pillbox hat with a veil pinned on it, like somebody out of a 1940’s movie.
By her side was a small nylon suitcase. The apartment looked as if no one had lived in it for years. All the furniture was covered with sheets. There were no clocks on the walls, no knickknacks or utensils on the counters. In the corner was a cardboard box filled with photos and glassware.
“Would you carry my bag out to the car?” she said.
I took the suitcase to the cab, then returned to assist the woman. She took my arm and we walked slowly toward the curb. She kept thanking me for my kindness.
“It’s nothing,” I told her. “I just try to treat my passengers the way I would want my mother treated.”
“Oh, you’re such a good boy,” she said.
When we got in the cab, she gave me an address, then asked, “Could you drive through downtown?”
“It’s not the shortest way,” I answered quickly.
“Oh, I don’t mind,” she said. “I’m in no hurry. I’m on my way to a hospice.”
I looked in the rear view mirror. Her eyes were glistening. “I don’t have any family left,” she continued. “The doctor says I don’t have very long.”
I quietly reached over and shut off the meter. “What route would you like me to take?” I asked.
For the next two hours, we drove through the city. She showed me the building where she had once worked as an elevator operator. We drove through the neighborhood where she and her husband had lived when they were newlyweds. She had me pull up in front of a furniture warehouse that had once been a ballroom where she had gone dancing as a girl. Sometimes she’d ask me to slow in front of a particular building or corner and would sit staring into the darkness, saying nothing.
As the first hint of sun was creasing the horizon, she suddenly said, “I’m tired. Let’s go now.”
We drove in silence to the address she had given me. It was a low building, like a small convalescent home, with a driveway that passed under a portico. Two orderlies came out to the cab as soon as we pulled up. They were solicitous and intent, watching her every move. They must have been expecting her. I opened the trunk and took the small suitcase to the door. The woman was already seated in a wheelchair.
“How much do I owe you?” she asked, reaching into her purse.
“Nothing,” I said.
“You have to make a living,” she answered.
“There are other passengers,” I responded.
Almost without thinking, I bent and gave her a hug. She held onto me tightly.
“You gave an old woman a little moment of joy,” she said. “Thank you.”
I squeezed her hand, then walked into the dim morning light. Behind me, a door shut. It was the sound of the closing of a life.
I didn’t pick up any more passengers that shift. I drove aimlessly, lost in thought. For the rest of that day, I could hardly talk. What if that woman had gotten an angry driver, or one who was impatient at the end his shift? What if I had refused to take the run, or had honked once, then driven away?
On a quick review, I don’t think that I have done anything more important in my life. We’re conditioned to think that our lives revolve around great moments. But great moments often catch us unaware–beautifully wrapped in what others may consider a small one.
People may not remember exactly what you did, or what you said, …but they will always remember how you made them feel.
Monday, 31 March 2008
Quitter!
Today, i almost quit on something.
Trust me, i have never agonised like this before on anything.
It has been a difficult day, even my pappi heard it in my voice
so i had to tell all.
He was quite concerned but like my pappi usually is, he was ever the voice of reason
Today, i learnt that i was doing more harm than good and i need to deal with it
and as usual, he asked me to pray for wisdom.
At lunch time, i said a little prayer and decided to let myself breathe.
Just a few minutes ago, a dear friend emailed me the text below.
Don't give up.....
One day I decided to quit...
I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality... I wanted to quit my life.
I went to the woods to have one last talk with God. 'God', I asked, 'Can you give me one good reason not to quit?'
His answer surprised me... 'Look around', He said. 'Do you see the fern and the bamboo?'
'Yes', I replied.
'When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them. I gave them light. I gave them water. The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. He said. 'In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit. In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would not quit.' He said. 'Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant...But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall. It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.
I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle.' He asked me.
'Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots'.
'I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you.'
'Don't compare yourself to others.' He said. 'The bamboo had a different Purpose than the fern. Yet they both make the forest beautiful.'
'Your time will come', God said to me. 'You will rise high' 'How high should I rise?'
I asked. 'How high will the bamboo rise?' He asked in return. 'As high as it can?' I questioned. 'Yes.' He said, 'Give me glory by rising as high as you can.'
I left the forest and brought back this story. I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.
Never, Never, Never Give up. For the Christian Prayer is not an option but an opportunity. Don't tell the Lord how big the problem is, tell the problem how Great the Lord is!
God has used you to bless me in a way you wont understand.
Thank you for these words.
Trust me, i have never agonised like this before on anything.
It has been a difficult day, even my pappi heard it in my voice
so i had to tell all.
He was quite concerned but like my pappi usually is, he was ever the voice of reason
Today, i learnt that i was doing more harm than good and i need to deal with it
and as usual, he asked me to pray for wisdom.
At lunch time, i said a little prayer and decided to let myself breathe.
Just a few minutes ago, a dear friend emailed me the text below.
Don't give up.....
One day I decided to quit...
I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality... I wanted to quit my life.
I went to the woods to have one last talk with God. 'God', I asked, 'Can you give me one good reason not to quit?'
His answer surprised me... 'Look around', He said. 'Do you see the fern and the bamboo?'
'Yes', I replied.
'When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them. I gave them light. I gave them water. The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. He said. 'In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit. In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would not quit.' He said. 'Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant...But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall. It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.
I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle.' He asked me.
'Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots'.
'I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you.'
'Don't compare yourself to others.' He said. 'The bamboo had a different Purpose than the fern. Yet they both make the forest beautiful.'
'Your time will come', God said to me. 'You will rise high' 'How high should I rise?'
I asked. 'How high will the bamboo rise?' He asked in return. 'As high as it can?' I questioned. 'Yes.' He said, 'Give me glory by rising as high as you can.'
I left the forest and brought back this story. I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.
Never, Never, Never Give up. For the Christian Prayer is not an option but an opportunity. Don't tell the Lord how big the problem is, tell the problem how Great the Lord is!
God has used you to bless me in a way you wont understand.
Thank you for these words.
NHS
I know we all complain about the NHS but i was able to see the work schedule of a doctor friend and i have to say, they do some pretty long hrs, get a lot of stick from us and have to put up with it all so for one time and one time only, i say thank you to everyone that work in the NHS for the effort you all put in.
I hear you
How was your weekend?
Mine was nice.
See your face, you were waiting for me to drop the gist
But nothing for you.
It was my Godson's first birthday on saturday. He is the cutest little thing on earth
He spent quite some time in my arms, drolling and snorting all over me.
He was feeling a little bit under the weather and i constantly was aware of his temperature.
A doctor friend had to tell me at one point that he is ok and i should stop fussing
Am i going to be the kind of father that will wrap my kids in cotton wool?
Met up with a friend as well and found out that she was engaged.
Someone other than me drove my car and i was comfy about that
Spent some time with a car mechanic
Went to the cinema
Wanted some peppersoup but did not get it.
All in all, i guess it was a good weekend. Scub that, It was a good weekend. I got to see certain things for what they really are as opposed to what i had been shown.
Mine was nice.
See your face, you were waiting for me to drop the gist
But nothing for you.
It was my Godson's first birthday on saturday. He is the cutest little thing on earth
He spent quite some time in my arms, drolling and snorting all over me.
He was feeling a little bit under the weather and i constantly was aware of his temperature.
A doctor friend had to tell me at one point that he is ok and i should stop fussing
Am i going to be the kind of father that will wrap my kids in cotton wool?
Met up with a friend as well and found out that she was engaged.
Someone other than me drove my car and i was comfy about that
Spent some time with a car mechanic
Went to the cinema
Wanted some peppersoup but did not get it.
All in all, i guess it was a good weekend. Scub that, It was a good weekend. I got to see certain things for what they really are as opposed to what i had been shown.
Thursday, 27 March 2008
Crossroads 3
Finally...........
Today is the day. It is the day i had been looking at as it was drawing closer and closer each minute.
Today, i have to tell my MD what i have decided to do.
Am i going to stay with the company?
Am i leaving?
I have the answer but will give you all a comprehensive gist of the meeting at a later time.
Even as i am thinking about things, i am beginning to really miss you.
I don't know what will become of us and for the first time, my heart aches over that
I want you to know though that wherever i go and whatever i do, i want you around me.
I am all of a sudden, a man in misery.
Today is the day. It is the day i had been looking at as it was drawing closer and closer each minute.
Today, i have to tell my MD what i have decided to do.
Am i going to stay with the company?
Am i leaving?
I have the answer but will give you all a comprehensive gist of the meeting at a later time.
Even as i am thinking about things, i am beginning to really miss you.
I don't know what will become of us and for the first time, my heart aches over that
I want you to know though that wherever i go and whatever i do, i want you around me.
I am all of a sudden, a man in misery.
Tuesday, 25 March 2008
I am feeling emotional
Been rehearsing in my mind so i'll be ready when its time
Knew i would be the best man i could ever be
Giving that which is of me
And that i find the strength and courage to seek
For the first time, i miss you terribly as you are not with me
Not having a clue what has come over me
Or what would become of us
I opened myself to you in a way i'd never done,
Letting you into my insecurities,
Giving you a pass, with all access granted
I feel like i am drifting through a cruel joke
Because when i looked into your eyes, it was empty,
Devoid of any emotion, chilling, spreading fear through me
I am not sure i am the man you want
Try as hard as i do, i fall short of your desires
I have been clinging on, hoping you will see the sincerity of my heart
Has the time come for me to concede?
Accept defeat graciously as you so often hint on many occasions
I know you feel something
But i want more
More than the occasional glance
The quiet stares that mean something to you, but are questions to me
Never mind though, i am only rambling cos its my time of the month!
Knew i would be the best man i could ever be
Giving that which is of me
And that i find the strength and courage to seek
For the first time, i miss you terribly as you are not with me
Not having a clue what has come over me
Or what would become of us
I opened myself to you in a way i'd never done,
Letting you into my insecurities,
Giving you a pass, with all access granted
I feel like i am drifting through a cruel joke
Because when i looked into your eyes, it was empty,
Devoid of any emotion, chilling, spreading fear through me
I am not sure i am the man you want
Try as hard as i do, i fall short of your desires
I have been clinging on, hoping you will see the sincerity of my heart
Has the time come for me to concede?
Accept defeat graciously as you so often hint on many occasions
I know you feel something
But i want more
More than the occasional glance
The quiet stares that mean something to you, but are questions to me
Never mind though, i am only rambling cos its my time of the month!
Monday, 24 March 2008
Unknowns
Is it God's plan for one person to have such an effect on our emotional state of mind
at certain times in our lives?
Why is my emotional state of mind dependent on the things you say or do to me?
I have wondered on so many occasions why as human beings we have no control
over certain organs in our body but we are the species that thrive most on controlling
our environment and those around us?
Are those desires to control born out of fear of the unknown?
what am i afraid of?
One of the closest people around me constantly tells me to ditch my fear
How can i when my fear is one of the few things i have control over?
I have just been told that i cannot have control over fear but check this,
I know how to deal with my fear, it is the unknown that i am more concerned about
You bring alot of unknowns when you cross my path and it is for that reason that i wonder,
Are you bringing with you that which is a killer situation, questions, answers to my many questions or as i suspect, more unknowns?
I have been very fortunate to have dealt with some unknowns in previous lives and worked
through them so the fear of working through an unknown should not be daunting or will not be daunting as long as you stick around to work through them with me.
at certain times in our lives?
Why is my emotional state of mind dependent on the things you say or do to me?
I have wondered on so many occasions why as human beings we have no control
over certain organs in our body but we are the species that thrive most on controlling
our environment and those around us?
Are those desires to control born out of fear of the unknown?
what am i afraid of?
One of the closest people around me constantly tells me to ditch my fear
How can i when my fear is one of the few things i have control over?
I have just been told that i cannot have control over fear but check this,
I know how to deal with my fear, it is the unknown that i am more concerned about
You bring alot of unknowns when you cross my path and it is for that reason that i wonder,
Are you bringing with you that which is a killer situation, questions, answers to my many questions or as i suspect, more unknowns?
I have been very fortunate to have dealt with some unknowns in previous lives and worked
through them so the fear of working through an unknown should not be daunting or will not be daunting as long as you stick around to work through them with me.
Selectivity
Selection: the process of making a choice/choices ahead of others.
Is it possible for me to select the parts of you that i like
leaving those i do not like behind?
Is it possible to like you on monday, not on tuesday but like you on wednesday?
Am i delusional about who you are and what you want?
There are those times when i like you
and other times when i dont like you alot
But the main thing is the feeling of not liking you is temporary
I like open minded people to
share jokes with and enjoy a decent banter with
It feels so different when you are here though
Its like being with a different person
I have looked at things in depth and questions arise about me
1. Am i commitment shy?
2. Am i afraid of the unknown, being selective about liking only the known?
I have enjoyed the pleasure of past kodac moments, being afraid to risk the
emotional strain of creating new ones.
The pleasure of those moments was the bonding with the unknown,
letting my self for that moment, and that person, blindly enjoy that which the
other person gives of herself freely, believing that i will reciprocate those feelings.
I can spend an eternity analysing myself but do you do the same?
Are you commitment shy?
Are you afriad of the unknown?
Are you stuck in your comfort zone?
Are you aware of important things?
Do you know what you want?
do you realise it cannot be on just your terms?
Can you walk away?
Are your fears much deeper than the solution on offer?
Questions, questions.
Is it possible for me to select the parts of you that i like
leaving those i do not like behind?
Is it possible to like you on monday, not on tuesday but like you on wednesday?
Am i delusional about who you are and what you want?
There are those times when i like you
and other times when i dont like you alot
But the main thing is the feeling of not liking you is temporary
I like open minded people to
share jokes with and enjoy a decent banter with
It feels so different when you are here though
Its like being with a different person
I have looked at things in depth and questions arise about me
1. Am i commitment shy?
2. Am i afraid of the unknown, being selective about liking only the known?
I have enjoyed the pleasure of past kodac moments, being afraid to risk the
emotional strain of creating new ones.
The pleasure of those moments was the bonding with the unknown,
letting my self for that moment, and that person, blindly enjoy that which the
other person gives of herself freely, believing that i will reciprocate those feelings.
I can spend an eternity analysing myself but do you do the same?
Are you commitment shy?
Are you afriad of the unknown?
Are you stuck in your comfort zone?
Are you aware of important things?
Do you know what you want?
do you realise it cannot be on just your terms?
Can you walk away?
Are your fears much deeper than the solution on offer?
Questions, questions.
Thursday, 20 March 2008
Criptonite
Are you my criptonite?
In the face of all that gives me the strength that has made me who i am,
I wilt in your presence
I tell myself it is not happening,
Convinced that it is only an inconsistency
I find my strength when you are not around
Taking the time to be rational, pleading for a way out
Coming to decisions that on paper makes the most sense
I find courage within myself, letting you know how i feel,
Even though cowardly, its on the phone
I tell myself, I am doing the right thing,
Trying desperately to be non-chalant and uncaring
You pull up in front of my house
My pulse rate increasing, sensing i am loosing control already
In a moment of eye contact,
All my brave decisions seem stupid, my strength, being sapped out of me
I start to weaken as you hug me
Gently letting your hands rest on the back of my neck
I can smell you, feeling your warmth as you hold me
easing the resistance out of me, holding me the way i like
My brave front is struggling
The S on my chest is gradually wearing off
I know my resistance is futile as it becomes clear to me,
You are my Criptonite.
In the face of all that gives me the strength that has made me who i am,
I wilt in your presence
I tell myself it is not happening,
Convinced that it is only an inconsistency
I find my strength when you are not around
Taking the time to be rational, pleading for a way out
Coming to decisions that on paper makes the most sense
I find courage within myself, letting you know how i feel,
Even though cowardly, its on the phone
I tell myself, I am doing the right thing,
Trying desperately to be non-chalant and uncaring
You pull up in front of my house
My pulse rate increasing, sensing i am loosing control already
In a moment of eye contact,
All my brave decisions seem stupid, my strength, being sapped out of me
I start to weaken as you hug me
Gently letting your hands rest on the back of my neck
I can smell you, feeling your warmth as you hold me
easing the resistance out of me, holding me the way i like
My brave front is struggling
The S on my chest is gradually wearing off
I know my resistance is futile as it becomes clear to me,
You are my Criptonite.
Wednesday, 19 March 2008
Did you know?
Did you know that those who appear to be very strong in heart are really weak and most susceptible?
Did you know that those who spend time helping others are the ones that really need someone to be there for them?
Did you know that the most difficult things to say are I love you, sorry and help me?
It is easier to say what you feel in writing than saying it to someone in the face, but it has more value when you say it to their face.
You looked beyond my outer screen, deep into me and saw me for who i trully was and i
have looked beyond that screen that is your expressionless face and see beneath the outer
shell and know that after its all said and done, you are (justyou).
Did you know that those who spend time helping others are the ones that really need someone to be there for them?
Did you know that the most difficult things to say are I love you, sorry and help me?
It is easier to say what you feel in writing than saying it to someone in the face, but it has more value when you say it to their face.
You looked beyond my outer screen, deep into me and saw me for who i trully was and i
have looked beyond that screen that is your expressionless face and see beneath the outer
shell and know that after its all said and done, you are (justyou).
Cross-roads 2
To my friends that have all called concerned about my employment situation,
i say thank you, i am doing well.
As God has always intended for me, i am in a position where i can pick and choose
a job right now and walk in the next day if that is what i want. I on the other hand
dont want to rush my next career move as i know it will be a major defining moment
in my life. I ask that you all pray for me, asking God to speak to me and lead me where
he has laid a table for me to feast. I will keep you all posted.
On the other side of things, i went to Dubai for 3 days and wow!!! That place is beautiful. Most
of it is still a building site as there are so many things going on at the same time but friends,
those are people thinking about the future of their country. Some of the things they have
done might come back to bite them in the you know where, like sand filling to reclaim land
(Victoria island in lagos is suffering now) but wow!!!!
As some of you might know, i am considering relocating there but there are so many other factors i need to consider and that is why i did not come back and start packing straight
away.
The moment i walked back into the office, i was bombarded with questions on whether i
will be staying with the company or not. I can tell you all that regardless of whether i move
to Dubai or not, i have decided to leave this place. Some of you are wondering right now as to how i am still righting about my old company even though they made us all redundant. Well,
a group of companies bought the company over after it went into administration and chose
a handful of us to come back and continue working for the company with many promises
that i do not believe. I would have stayed but i know my time here is up and i am only here
to make sure i finish the project i was dealing with personally. I have too much blood, sweat
and tears invested in the project to let anyone else ruin it. if anyone is going to ruin it, it must be me, jusy joking!!!
I feel at peace as regards the job situation and i know i am doing the right thing so please keep
praying for me. Other areas of my life, well that is another blogspace, not just an article.
i say thank you, i am doing well.
As God has always intended for me, i am in a position where i can pick and choose
a job right now and walk in the next day if that is what i want. I on the other hand
dont want to rush my next career move as i know it will be a major defining moment
in my life. I ask that you all pray for me, asking God to speak to me and lead me where
he has laid a table for me to feast. I will keep you all posted.
On the other side of things, i went to Dubai for 3 days and wow!!! That place is beautiful. Most
of it is still a building site as there are so many things going on at the same time but friends,
those are people thinking about the future of their country. Some of the things they have
done might come back to bite them in the you know where, like sand filling to reclaim land
(Victoria island in lagos is suffering now) but wow!!!!
As some of you might know, i am considering relocating there but there are so many other factors i need to consider and that is why i did not come back and start packing straight
away.
The moment i walked back into the office, i was bombarded with questions on whether i
will be staying with the company or not. I can tell you all that regardless of whether i move
to Dubai or not, i have decided to leave this place. Some of you are wondering right now as to how i am still righting about my old company even though they made us all redundant. Well,
a group of companies bought the company over after it went into administration and chose
a handful of us to come back and continue working for the company with many promises
that i do not believe. I would have stayed but i know my time here is up and i am only here
to make sure i finish the project i was dealing with personally. I have too much blood, sweat
and tears invested in the project to let anyone else ruin it. if anyone is going to ruin it, it must be me, jusy joking!!!
I feel at peace as regards the job situation and i know i am doing the right thing so please keep
praying for me. Other areas of my life, well that is another blogspace, not just an article.
Tuesday, 11 March 2008
I am a blessing
When your whole life, or what you know has followed a certain pattern
And then along comes someone/something that does not naturally fit into that mould,
Don't be afraid to melt the mould and look for a reform because
I trully believe that i am a blessing and i add value
And then along comes someone/something that does not naturally fit into that mould,
Don't be afraid to melt the mould and look for a reform because
I trully believe that i am a blessing and i add value
One chance
There will always be many friends that support and care for a season in our lives but
True love might come around only once in our life time and it will remain for all seasons.
Be wise and be discerning.
True love might come around only once in our life time and it will remain for all seasons.
Be wise and be discerning.
It is what it is
Sometimes, it takes a word, a phrase or a line for the lightbulb to be switched on in my head
I am always happy when people slap me in the face with the realities of an issue even when
it is being presented in front of my face but i am still blind to it.
It is safe to say that my face is still stinging but i am all the better for it.
Age is no cure for naivity and sadly, i still see things through my ultra-naive specs,
Choosing to see differently even when the facts are being flashed before my face.
In my moment of clarity, i will say that i am not grateful because you choose to stick
around, neither am i thankful for your conversations. I am on the other hand glad that
we can chat and laugh and neither is a favour to me nor a charitable situation.
A re-defining of friendship takes place everytime and the success of this re-definition is
an absolute understanding of our boundaries or lack of. Making friends is a good thing
and on that note i say "welcome to the new improved and re-defined frienship". I am sure
that with this new and better understanding of our friendship, a certain thing will cease
to be an issue.
I am always happy when people slap me in the face with the realities of an issue even when
it is being presented in front of my face but i am still blind to it.
It is safe to say that my face is still stinging but i am all the better for it.
Age is no cure for naivity and sadly, i still see things through my ultra-naive specs,
Choosing to see differently even when the facts are being flashed before my face.
In my moment of clarity, i will say that i am not grateful because you choose to stick
around, neither am i thankful for your conversations. I am on the other hand glad that
we can chat and laugh and neither is a favour to me nor a charitable situation.
A re-defining of friendship takes place everytime and the success of this re-definition is
an absolute understanding of our boundaries or lack of. Making friends is a good thing
and on that note i say "welcome to the new improved and re-defined frienship". I am sure
that with this new and better understanding of our friendship, a certain thing will cease
to be an issue.
What a day
Had to go to the office today to sign all the redundancy documents
there was a good number of us there today going through the motions
I have submitted all the documents and signed off the end of an era.
I was always going to leave the company next month but for things to work
out the way they have is quite sad.
I wish all my former work colleagues the best in all future endeavours.
It trully has been emotional.
there was a good number of us there today going through the motions
I have submitted all the documents and signed off the end of an era.
I was always going to leave the company next month but for things to work
out the way they have is quite sad.
I wish all my former work colleagues the best in all future endeavours.
It trully has been emotional.
Monday, 10 March 2008
E don happen
At exactly 3:05pm this afternoon, i was made redundant. Never been made redundant in my life.
I am jobless!
I am jobless!
Breaking news...
Citizens of blogville, it is happening..
Finally, our Directors called us all together today
To announce that from 3:30pm,
The company will be going into administration;
Lay man's english, i am jobless from 3:30pm.
The company is in the process of of buy out and things might return to normal
either tomorrow, or whenever cos the new owners will have to re-issue
employment contracts to all the staff they want to retain.
My heart went out to my Managing Director as he was making the announcement.
He was really upset and could not look us all in the face.
I know he will possibly make some money of the sale but i thought he was really hurt
by the turn of events. He has been a friend more than a boss and maybe that might
be one of the contributing factors to why things went wrong. Poor fella was in hospital
for about 3weeks with blood infection as well so he hobbled in with crutches.
It has been quite emotional here and i will definately miss a few people here.
No matter what happens tomorrow or whenever, i have made up my mind to leave.
I have been here for close to 2yrs and i can tell you all that it has been quite an emotional
day for me.
Come to think of it, the past say 36hrs have been quite emotional, alot has happened,
things have changed and my perspective is different.
Finally, our Directors called us all together today
To announce that from 3:30pm,
The company will be going into administration;
Lay man's english, i am jobless from 3:30pm.
The company is in the process of of buy out and things might return to normal
either tomorrow, or whenever cos the new owners will have to re-issue
employment contracts to all the staff they want to retain.
My heart went out to my Managing Director as he was making the announcement.
He was really upset and could not look us all in the face.
I know he will possibly make some money of the sale but i thought he was really hurt
by the turn of events. He has been a friend more than a boss and maybe that might
be one of the contributing factors to why things went wrong. Poor fella was in hospital
for about 3weeks with blood infection as well so he hobbled in with crutches.
It has been quite emotional here and i will definately miss a few people here.
No matter what happens tomorrow or whenever, i have made up my mind to leave.
I have been here for close to 2yrs and i can tell you all that it has been quite an emotional
day for me.
Come to think of it, the past say 36hrs have been quite emotional, alot has happened,
things have changed and my perspective is different.
Even the Lord.....
A man was riding his motorcycle along a California beach when suddenly
the sky clouded above his head and, in a booming voice, the Lord said,
"Because you have TRIED to be faithful to me in all ways, I will grant
you one wish".
The biker pulled over and said, "Build a bridge to Hawaii so I canride over anytime I want."
The Lord said, "Your request is materialistic, think of the enormous
challenges for that kind of undertaking; the supports required to
reach the bottom of the Pacific and the concrete and steel it would
take! It will nearly exhaust several natural resources. I can do it,
but it is hard for me to justify your desire for worldly things. Take
a little more time and think of something that could possibly help
mankind."
The biker thought about it for a long time. Finally, he said, "Lord, I
wish that I and all men could understand women; I want to know how she
feels inside, what she's thinking when she gives me the silent
treatment, why she cries, what she means when she says nothing's
wrong, and how I can make a woman truly happy."
The Lord replied: "You want two lanes or four on that bridge?"
the sky clouded above his head and, in a booming voice, the Lord said,
"Because you have TRIED to be faithful to me in all ways, I will grant
you one wish".
The biker pulled over and said, "Build a bridge to Hawaii so I canride over anytime I want."
The Lord said, "Your request is materialistic, think of the enormous
challenges for that kind of undertaking; the supports required to
reach the bottom of the Pacific and the concrete and steel it would
take! It will nearly exhaust several natural resources. I can do it,
but it is hard for me to justify your desire for worldly things. Take
a little more time and think of something that could possibly help
mankind."
The biker thought about it for a long time. Finally, he said, "Lord, I
wish that I and all men could understand women; I want to know how she
feels inside, what she's thinking when she gives me the silent
treatment, why she cries, what she means when she says nothing's
wrong, and how I can make a woman truly happy."
The Lord replied: "You want two lanes or four on that bridge?"
Ahhhggggg!
I am under some self imposed gag order but i feel like...
AHHHHHHHGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Value
Sometimes we just need to be
reminded!
A well-known speaker
started off his seminar by: holding up a $20.00
bill. In the room of 200, he asked, 'Who would like this
$20 bill?' Hands started going up.
He said, 'I am going to give this
$20 to one of you but first, let me
do this. He
proceeded to crumple up the $20 dollar bill.
He then asked, 'Who
still wants it?' Still the hands
were up in the air. Well, he
replied, 'What if I do this?' And he
dropped it on the ground and started
to grind it into the floor with his shoe. He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty.
'Now, who still wants it?'
Still the hands went into the air.
My friends, we have all learned a
very valuable lesson. No matter what
I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value.
It was still worth $20.
Many times in our lives,
we are dropped, crumpled, and ground
into the dirt by the decisions we
make and the circumstances that come
our way. We feel as though we are
worthless. But no matter what has
happened or what will happen, you
will never lose your value. Dirty or
clean, crumpled or finely creased, you are still
priceless to those who DO LOVE you. The worth of our
lives comes not in what we do or who we know,
but by WHO WE ARE and
WHOSE WE ARE.
reminded!
A well-known speaker
started off his seminar by: holding up a $20.00
bill. In the room of 200, he asked, 'Who would like this
$20 bill?' Hands started going up.
He said, 'I am going to give this
$20 to one of you but first, let me
do this. He
proceeded to crumple up the $20 dollar bill.
He then asked, 'Who
still wants it?' Still the hands
were up in the air. Well, he
replied, 'What if I do this?' And he
dropped it on the ground and started
to grind it into the floor with his shoe. He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty.
'Now, who still wants it?'
Still the hands went into the air.
My friends, we have all learned a
very valuable lesson. No matter what
I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value.
It was still worth $20.
Many times in our lives,
we are dropped, crumpled, and ground
into the dirt by the decisions we
make and the circumstances that come
our way. We feel as though we are
worthless. But no matter what has
happened or what will happen, you
will never lose your value. Dirty or
clean, crumpled or finely creased, you are still
priceless to those who DO LOVE you. The worth of our
lives comes not in what we do or who we know,
but by WHO WE ARE and
WHOSE WE ARE.
Thursday, 6 March 2008
Phew
What a day!
I am very proud to report that all 7 of the examiners voted for my dissertation to proceed.
Hey, thank you very much for that phone call this morning
At my moment of worry, you once more risked my huge frame on your fragile shoulder
Thank you for always knowing when to reach out to me
You know what i think of you.
I am very proud to report that all 7 of the examiners voted for my dissertation to proceed.
Hey, thank you very much for that phone call this morning
At my moment of worry, you once more risked my huge frame on your fragile shoulder
Thank you for always knowing when to reach out to me
You know what i think of you.
Expectation pt 2
I have suddenly been hit with the realisation that contrary to my stand of not having expectations of people, i actually suffer from expectationitis.
Does this make me a hypocrite after many years of preaching about expectations?
I used the phrase "Duty of care" last night.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Somebody slap me!!!!!!!!
That is the biggest sign of expectationitis!
Does this make me a hypocrite after many years of preaching about expectations?
I used the phrase "Duty of care" last night.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Somebody slap me!!!!!!!!
That is the biggest sign of expectationitis!
Past 12Hrs
The past 12hrs have been quite some period.
Anyways, i woke up at about 4.00am this morning to practice my presentation.
For those of you that do not know, i have 10mins today to present my dissertation topic
to the examination board and external examiners.
Lo and behold, the power point presentation i had done and copied onto disc did not contain
any of the pictures i had attached.
I quickly shot out of my house and went to my office and had to re-insert all the pictures and re-align all the pages.
I finally set out from my office for school at 6.55am.
During my drive down here, i was filled with thought about something.
Why is it more easy for you to be stubborn, set boundaries than to spend that same energy
in making the right connection.
It seems to me that alot goes into setting boundaries than actually forming a union.
No, i am not asking you to change who you are
The bible say "create in me a new heart, and renew a right spirit within me"
While it is what you know and what you are used to, it is not necessarily the best thing for you.
In building terms, before you can bond materials properly, you have to ensure that both surfaces
are prepared, cleaned and primed so that nothing disturbs the adhesion process.
Transport that into life and all it means is, certain things disturb adhesion/connection and to
aid this adhesion/connection process, a cleaning/priming needs to take place. This process does not rub the material of it basic chemical/human composition, it only serves to make the material/human more receptive to the other material/human that will be bonded on.
oh, good morning and i hope you slept well.
Anyways, i woke up at about 4.00am this morning to practice my presentation.
For those of you that do not know, i have 10mins today to present my dissertation topic
to the examination board and external examiners.
Lo and behold, the power point presentation i had done and copied onto disc did not contain
any of the pictures i had attached.
I quickly shot out of my house and went to my office and had to re-insert all the pictures and re-align all the pages.
I finally set out from my office for school at 6.55am.
During my drive down here, i was filled with thought about something.
Why is it more easy for you to be stubborn, set boundaries than to spend that same energy
in making the right connection.
It seems to me that alot goes into setting boundaries than actually forming a union.
No, i am not asking you to change who you are
The bible say "create in me a new heart, and renew a right spirit within me"
While it is what you know and what you are used to, it is not necessarily the best thing for you.
In building terms, before you can bond materials properly, you have to ensure that both surfaces
are prepared, cleaned and primed so that nothing disturbs the adhesion process.
Transport that into life and all it means is, certain things disturb adhesion/connection and to
aid this adhesion/connection process, a cleaning/priming needs to take place. This process does not rub the material of it basic chemical/human composition, it only serves to make the material/human more receptive to the other material/human that will be bonded on.
oh, good morning and i hope you slept well.
Wednesday, 5 March 2008
Brother, have you ever lost it?
At a certain time in my life, i have to say i lost it
I could not understand how it happened
All i know is one day i woke up and Hey Presto, it was gone
For a brief period, i panicked
What is this?
Why me?
How would i cope?
What are the effects?
Questions, questions
I could not handle it
Sleep was rare on other days
Eventually, i started to cope, re-adjusting my life to move forward
I started to take each day as it came and gradually, it did not seem so bad
Until one day, i got it back
I have to say that the heartache of getting it back was excruciating and it could have scared me.
Today, i can say that i have it back fully.
No, its not my Mojo i lost!
Loosing control of my heart to some woman was not the end of the world but a beautiful thing
And i can't wait to loose it again.
I could not understand how it happened
All i know is one day i woke up and Hey Presto, it was gone
For a brief period, i panicked
What is this?
Why me?
How would i cope?
What are the effects?
Questions, questions
I could not handle it
Sleep was rare on other days
Eventually, i started to cope, re-adjusting my life to move forward
I started to take each day as it came and gradually, it did not seem so bad
Until one day, i got it back
I have to say that the heartache of getting it back was excruciating and it could have scared me.
Today, i can say that i have it back fully.
No, its not my Mojo i lost!
Loosing control of my heart to some woman was not the end of the world but a beautiful thing
And i can't wait to loose it again.
Read this and thought i'd share it with you
1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye.
16. Life is too short for long pity parties. Get busy living or get busy dying.
17. You can get through anything if you stay put in today.
18. A writer writes. If you want to be a writer, write.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else. 20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is a special occasion.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: "In five years, will this matter?"
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood. Make it memorable.
38. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
39. Get outside every day .
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
41. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
42. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
43. All that truly matters in the end is that you are loved.
44. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
45. The best is yet to come.
46. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
47. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
48. If you don't ask, you don't get.
49. Yield.
50. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye.
16. Life is too short for long pity parties. Get busy living or get busy dying.
17. You can get through anything if you stay put in today.
18. A writer writes. If you want to be a writer, write.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else. 20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is a special occasion.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: "In five years, will this matter?"
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood. Make it memorable.
38. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
39. Get outside every day .
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
41. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
42. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
43. All that truly matters in the end is that you are loved.
44. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
45. The best is yet to come.
46. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
47. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
48. If you don't ask, you don't get.
49. Yield.
50. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.
Tuesday, 4 March 2008
Expectations
There is always excitement and anticipation at the thought of finally recieving, resolving or unravelling a mystery. While we spend alot of nervous energy raising expectations, it sometimes comes crashing before us cos that which we have built in our minds or held in high esteem does not match up to the fantasy we have created in our minds.
The beauty of realisation is not in the matching of our fantasy, but the acknowledgement of the reality of what is before you.
I hope i meet up to your expectations.
The beauty of realisation is not in the matching of our fantasy, but the acknowledgement of the reality of what is before you.
I hope i meet up to your expectations.
Saturday, 1 March 2008
Choice
You can choose who you love
But you can not choose who loves you
There is a world of people out there and believe me,
there is someone out there going to return that which you freely give
But you can not choose who loves you
There is a world of people out there and believe me,
there is someone out there going to return that which you freely give
Mothers Day
Tomorrow is mothers day and i would like to use this opportunity to thank all the mothers and future mothers out there for the big sacrifice you make. No man will be able to replicate the effort it takes to carry children for nine months so from the bottom of my heart, i stand in salute of this reponsibility you are born with and say thank you on behalf of all men out there with any sense of gratitude.
Happy mothers day to you all and to the following people:
Mummy Akoka
Mama Toro
Sister Funmi
Sister Seyi
Sister Folusho
You guys stood in the untimely gap that came about and i hope you are all proud of the men you raised.
From all three of us, thank you and we love you.
And oh, to you, yes, you, i know you are not a mother yet but i'm sure you will make a fantastic mother someday. Happy mothers day.
Happy mothers day to you all and to the following people:
Mummy Akoka
Mama Toro
Sister Funmi
Sister Seyi
Sister Folusho
You guys stood in the untimely gap that came about and i hope you are all proud of the men you raised.
From all three of us, thank you and we love you.
And oh, to you, yes, you, i know you are not a mother yet but i'm sure you will make a fantastic mother someday. Happy mothers day.
From a friend's blog
Do You Expect Too Much From Your Relationship?
We all deserve to find people who connect with us, who care for us, who make us laugh, who drive us crazy (in a good way), and who make us feel more excited than a popcorn kernel in a microwave. Of course, we should all strive for all five qualities, not settle for two or three of the total. That said, many of us have unfair expectations of what relationships are supposed to be like. Blame it on the movies, or romance novels, or Barbie-and-Ken mythology, but seeking perfection in a relationship isn't noble; it's doomed. Think about the lottery winners: They play with the hope that they'll score big, quit the job, buy a yacht, and party for the rest of their lives. But the reality for so many mega-bucks winners is that they end up in a dead-end life with relatives clawing at them and bankruptcy lawyers dividing the spoils. Why? Because their expectations of their fantasy life were far different than the reality, and they end up blowing the so-called best thing that ever happened to them. Same goes for relationships. You may hit lucky sevens with a perfect match, but if you don't manage the fantasy with a dose of reality, your heart will be headed for bankruptcy. Below, you'll find four key fantasy vs. reality clashes. Make sure you end up on the right side
Expectation: The Fireworks of Romance
Reality:
The Fireworks of Conflict Sure, when sparks fly in a beginning of relationship, you've got oodles of chemistry, hopes, and anticipation. But to think that every day is going to be a barrel of butter-cream icing is just asking for trouble. If you're experiencing a lot of passion, you need to manage the 180-degree side of that passion-hard-core conflict. While some see conflict as relationship weakness, it can actually be the opposite - a Harvard study, in fact, found that subjects who express their anger have half the risk of heart disease compared with men who internalize it. It's a sign that you're communicating, a sign that you both care about the relationship, and a sign that you've got sparks, not complacency.
Expectation: The Perfect Package
Reality: Imperfect Behavior When two people meet "the one," they tell all their friends about all the qualities of the new-found lover:
Cute, friendly, compassionate, funny, good job, nice shoes, gorgeous body. In other words, poifect! Yeah, right, your friends think, and they're probably right. Okay, your new love interest seems to fit 97 of your 100 pieces of criteria for the perfect mate - after the second date. But again, that level of expectation can be an unfair standard that your imperfect companion will never be able to live up to as weeks, months, and years pass. Better to admire and appreciate the things that made you swoon. Then, it's up to you to manage the warts and worries (in personality, behavior, hygiene, whatever) that will slowly be introduced the more you get to know them.
Expectation: Wild Nights, Sleepy Days
Reality: Wild Days, Sleepy Nights The joys of dating:
Party all night, then lounge around during the day in anticipation of the night ahead. Of course, the initial excitement - about an impending date on the town or a friendly tussle in the bedroom - is one of the main engines that drives the relationship early on. That power source will wind down a bit once commitment sets in and routine takes over. Fight the impulse to pull away when you start to feel this relationship shift; spending time with a romantic partner can curb work-related stress and lower blood pressure, according to researchers at the University of North Carolina. The most successful couples are the ones who are able to adapt to the fact that crazy work days, the stress of life, and the daily grind of reality will become a stronger force than all-night talks under the stars.
Expectation: Complete Immersion
Reality: Occasional Diversion When you start dating someone who drives you to Jack Nicholson levels of craziness, you want total saturation. You want to talk on the phone, you want an inbox full of flirty messages, you want five nights a week of dates, you can't stop thinking about them, and everything you say, do, smell, touch, or eat reminds you of that person. If that's you, I'm happy for you. That kind of all-consuming infatuation is one of the greatest feelings in life. But it just can't last. And - truth to tell - men may maintain an interest in the football, and want to watch a game or two with buds. Or women may decide that, heck, those end-of-season sales just can't go on without them. Many couples write off those feelings as evidence that they must be falling out of love. I don't see it that way. I see it as falling into reality, and successful couples know how to change their definition of immersion. In fact, University of Chicago researchers found that those with a wide circle of friends have an easier time dealing with stress and have a lower risk of heart disease than people who rely on only one or two others for support. That is, they don't see immersion as being based on quantity of time together, but rather immersing themselves in each other in whatever time they have-whether it's a lot or not.
We all deserve to find people who connect with us, who care for us, who make us laugh, who drive us crazy (in a good way), and who make us feel more excited than a popcorn kernel in a microwave. Of course, we should all strive for all five qualities, not settle for two or three of the total. That said, many of us have unfair expectations of what relationships are supposed to be like. Blame it on the movies, or romance novels, or Barbie-and-Ken mythology, but seeking perfection in a relationship isn't noble; it's doomed. Think about the lottery winners: They play with the hope that they'll score big, quit the job, buy a yacht, and party for the rest of their lives. But the reality for so many mega-bucks winners is that they end up in a dead-end life with relatives clawing at them and bankruptcy lawyers dividing the spoils. Why? Because their expectations of their fantasy life were far different than the reality, and they end up blowing the so-called best thing that ever happened to them. Same goes for relationships. You may hit lucky sevens with a perfect match, but if you don't manage the fantasy with a dose of reality, your heart will be headed for bankruptcy. Below, you'll find four key fantasy vs. reality clashes. Make sure you end up on the right side
Expectation: The Fireworks of Romance
Reality:
The Fireworks of Conflict Sure, when sparks fly in a beginning of relationship, you've got oodles of chemistry, hopes, and anticipation. But to think that every day is going to be a barrel of butter-cream icing is just asking for trouble. If you're experiencing a lot of passion, you need to manage the 180-degree side of that passion-hard-core conflict. While some see conflict as relationship weakness, it can actually be the opposite - a Harvard study, in fact, found that subjects who express their anger have half the risk of heart disease compared with men who internalize it. It's a sign that you're communicating, a sign that you both care about the relationship, and a sign that you've got sparks, not complacency.
Expectation: The Perfect Package
Reality: Imperfect Behavior When two people meet "the one," they tell all their friends about all the qualities of the new-found lover:
Cute, friendly, compassionate, funny, good job, nice shoes, gorgeous body. In other words, poifect! Yeah, right, your friends think, and they're probably right. Okay, your new love interest seems to fit 97 of your 100 pieces of criteria for the perfect mate - after the second date. But again, that level of expectation can be an unfair standard that your imperfect companion will never be able to live up to as weeks, months, and years pass. Better to admire and appreciate the things that made you swoon. Then, it's up to you to manage the warts and worries (in personality, behavior, hygiene, whatever) that will slowly be introduced the more you get to know them.
Expectation: Wild Nights, Sleepy Days
Reality: Wild Days, Sleepy Nights The joys of dating:
Party all night, then lounge around during the day in anticipation of the night ahead. Of course, the initial excitement - about an impending date on the town or a friendly tussle in the bedroom - is one of the main engines that drives the relationship early on. That power source will wind down a bit once commitment sets in and routine takes over. Fight the impulse to pull away when you start to feel this relationship shift; spending time with a romantic partner can curb work-related stress and lower blood pressure, according to researchers at the University of North Carolina. The most successful couples are the ones who are able to adapt to the fact that crazy work days, the stress of life, and the daily grind of reality will become a stronger force than all-night talks under the stars.
Expectation: Complete Immersion
Reality: Occasional Diversion When you start dating someone who drives you to Jack Nicholson levels of craziness, you want total saturation. You want to talk on the phone, you want an inbox full of flirty messages, you want five nights a week of dates, you can't stop thinking about them, and everything you say, do, smell, touch, or eat reminds you of that person. If that's you, I'm happy for you. That kind of all-consuming infatuation is one of the greatest feelings in life. But it just can't last. And - truth to tell - men may maintain an interest in the football, and want to watch a game or two with buds. Or women may decide that, heck, those end-of-season sales just can't go on without them. Many couples write off those feelings as evidence that they must be falling out of love. I don't see it that way. I see it as falling into reality, and successful couples know how to change their definition of immersion. In fact, University of Chicago researchers found that those with a wide circle of friends have an easier time dealing with stress and have a lower risk of heart disease than people who rely on only one or two others for support. That is, they don't see immersion as being based on quantity of time together, but rather immersing themselves in each other in whatever time they have-whether it's a lot or not.
Friday, 29 February 2008
Birthday boi
Today is a very good friend's birthday.
He is a wonderful soul
A gentle spirit and a benevolent human being.
God will continue to order your footsteps my friend.
Happy birthday junior.
He is a wonderful soul
A gentle spirit and a benevolent human being.
God will continue to order your footsteps my friend.
Happy birthday junior.
My every thot.....
I like it how we chill, i like our conversation
I'm dealing with this feeling of infatuation
Pacing, don't want to force the situation
Waiting for your next move, no hesitation
I'm thinking maybe, this could turn into something more
I'm feeling you and you've got me open for sure
I'm hoping that the feelings are mutual
Trying to hold off but i want you to know
I'm addicted to you
I can't fight it cos i rather like it
My every thot is you.
I'm dealing with this feeling of infatuation
Pacing, don't want to force the situation
Waiting for your next move, no hesitation
I'm thinking maybe, this could turn into something more
I'm feeling you and you've got me open for sure
I'm hoping that the feelings are mutual
Trying to hold off but i want you to know
I'm addicted to you
I can't fight it cos i rather like it
My every thot is you.
Wednesday, 27 February 2008
In other words
I love these words....
Let me play amongst the stars
Let me see what spring is like
Hold my hand, kiss me
Fill my heart with song
Let me sing for ever more
You are all that i long for
All i worship and adore
In other words, please be true
Let me play amongst the stars
Let me see what spring is like
Hold my hand, kiss me
Fill my heart with song
Let me sing for ever more
You are all that i long for
All i worship and adore
In other words, please be true
You were lost but...
A friend came back into my life today after about 2months absence. Welcome back and hope you stick around this time.
Conspiracy theories
It was put to me today by a very intelligent girl (please note the use of girl cos she calls me boy) that we might all be wrapped up in a movement without allowing ourselves the liberty of understanding the reason for the euphoria that has gripped the whole world: Barak Obama!
My very dear conspiracy theorist put it to me that Barak Obama might be THE ANTI-CHRIST!
Stop laughing, stop! i initially laughed when she told me bearing in mind that she did not want to say it but i reached down her guts and yanked it out of her.
Think though? could it be true? The bible does tell us that there would be a great movement worldwide and people will be spell bound when the anti-christ speaks. Ask yourself, why are you taken in by this man? what is it about him that is so captivating, wanting you to rout for him? Why now more than ever has there been such focus by the world on one man, the man who might be the next leader of the free world?
I am not for one minute saying that my conspiracy theorist is right but i will not look the other way and ignore what she has said. Funny as it might be to you, think about it? If you are a bible reading christian, investigate your position on this and look at what the bible says?
It is possible it is all airy-fairy stuff but for one moment, give her the benefit of the doubt and allow yourself wonder, WHAT IF SHE IS RIGHT?
My very dear conspiracy theorist put it to me that Barak Obama might be THE ANTI-CHRIST!
Stop laughing, stop! i initially laughed when she told me bearing in mind that she did not want to say it but i reached down her guts and yanked it out of her.
Think though? could it be true? The bible does tell us that there would be a great movement worldwide and people will be spell bound when the anti-christ speaks. Ask yourself, why are you taken in by this man? what is it about him that is so captivating, wanting you to rout for him? Why now more than ever has there been such focus by the world on one man, the man who might be the next leader of the free world?
I am not for one minute saying that my conspiracy theorist is right but i will not look the other way and ignore what she has said. Funny as it might be to you, think about it? If you are a bible reading christian, investigate your position on this and look at what the bible says?
It is possible it is all airy-fairy stuff but for one moment, give her the benefit of the doubt and allow yourself wonder, WHAT IF SHE IS RIGHT?
As things stand
It seems like everytime i am absent from the office, some major drama unfolds. Well you see, my company is struggling financially and yesterday, a company that specializes in looking into company financies and deciding whether to call in the administrators were present yesterday, poking their noses into the company accounts.
Now i am not naive, when companies like that come in, it generally means you are on your last legs and the fact that they had come in makes me sad. I am left praying that the sell-out option that the board have been working on comes through cos i like the people i work with and it will be sad to see people get laid off.
I believe the company has about 14days to get the buy out sorted. I will keep y'all posted.
Now i am not naive, when companies like that come in, it generally means you are on your last legs and the fact that they had come in makes me sad. I am left praying that the sell-out option that the board have been working on comes through cos i like the people i work with and it will be sad to see people get laid off.
I believe the company has about 14days to get the buy out sorted. I will keep y'all posted.
Monday, 25 February 2008
It's for you, yes, you
You can't ignore what you felt when our pair of eyes met
And as cliche as it sounds, it is destiny for us to be together
God's joke is driving me wild; bringing you into my life
But his plan is for us to stay together, despite the things we have gone through in other lives
We hug as we listen to coldplay, the music to the movement of this thing called love
I feel like we are supposed to shine
Your laughter brightening my entire life
I am not asking for much of you
Just want you to explore this life with me
Cos i am sure divine intervention will take place
When you rest your love in me.
And as cliche as it sounds, it is destiny for us to be together
God's joke is driving me wild; bringing you into my life
But his plan is for us to stay together, despite the things we have gone through in other lives
We hug as we listen to coldplay, the music to the movement of this thing called love
I feel like we are supposed to shine
Your laughter brightening my entire life
I am not asking for much of you
Just want you to explore this life with me
Cos i am sure divine intervention will take place
When you rest your love in me.
Sunday, 24 February 2008
Deserting a sinking ship
For some time now, the company i work for has been struggling financially. You see, i work in the building industry, in a field that carries alot of risks. In the building trade, many materials are adaptable on site but in the facade design and engineering field, you make a mistake and you pay dearly.
Main contractors decided a long time ago not to take on the risks, hence the market for specialist sub-contractors that design and install the glass facades of buildings. The average lifespan of companies in this field is 15yrs.
So much for the brief story. As those of you who read my blog will know, i am actually doing a masters degree in Facade engineering and my company has picked up the bill for this. The great thing about this course is there are only 135 people in the UK industry with this qualifications with only 3 Universities in the world offering this course so from the day you start the course, companies start to sound you out with offers.
I have been lucky as well to have been made a few offers and have some companies wanting to talk to me. Here is my dilema. I know i have to leave my company for three reasons:-
1. My qualification will mean that i will be over qualified to remain with my present company
2. The money being offered by other companies, especially outside the UK is crazy
3. The company looks like it is going down
The other side of the above is the fact that the company has been really good to all the staff in the past and there are projects ongoing right now that the company needs me to be around to work on.
Just the other day, our MD called all the staff together to update us, letting us know that things were really bad but if we all work together, we can pull through. I have been looking to move on but his speech hit me where my conscience resides.
Can i still give 100% knowing the things i know and understanding that i will be leaving? Hard as i try, i am loosing the will to continue and this strike at the heart of my sence of gratitude.
Am i being selfish, pursuing future career growth while the company that helped give me that opportunity is struggling?
Main contractors decided a long time ago not to take on the risks, hence the market for specialist sub-contractors that design and install the glass facades of buildings. The average lifespan of companies in this field is 15yrs.
So much for the brief story. As those of you who read my blog will know, i am actually doing a masters degree in Facade engineering and my company has picked up the bill for this. The great thing about this course is there are only 135 people in the UK industry with this qualifications with only 3 Universities in the world offering this course so from the day you start the course, companies start to sound you out with offers.
I have been lucky as well to have been made a few offers and have some companies wanting to talk to me. Here is my dilema. I know i have to leave my company for three reasons:-
1. My qualification will mean that i will be over qualified to remain with my present company
2. The money being offered by other companies, especially outside the UK is crazy
3. The company looks like it is going down
The other side of the above is the fact that the company has been really good to all the staff in the past and there are projects ongoing right now that the company needs me to be around to work on.
Just the other day, our MD called all the staff together to update us, letting us know that things were really bad but if we all work together, we can pull through. I have been looking to move on but his speech hit me where my conscience resides.
Can i still give 100% knowing the things i know and understanding that i will be leaving? Hard as i try, i am loosing the will to continue and this strike at the heart of my sence of gratitude.
Am i being selfish, pursuing future career growth while the company that helped give me that opportunity is struggling?
Friday, 22 February 2008
In my moments of weakness
Does being a man mean i have no moments of weakness?
Why are my moments of weakness taken to mean that i am weak?
There are days when my strength fails me
Try as hard as i can, i wilt in the face of mounting pressures
I am down but not out, rode about and weary
yet i am holding on
I reach out to you in my own way,
voice trembling beneath my mountains of worries
Tried to put it out so you could feel me
looking to you to hold me down
Man or woman, we have moments of weaknesses
In mine, please reach out to me
It is only for tonight
It will be all over in the morning.
Why are my moments of weakness taken to mean that i am weak?
There are days when my strength fails me
Try as hard as i can, i wilt in the face of mounting pressures
I am down but not out, rode about and weary
yet i am holding on
I reach out to you in my own way,
voice trembling beneath my mountains of worries
Tried to put it out so you could feel me
looking to you to hold me down
Man or woman, we have moments of weaknesses
In mine, please reach out to me
It is only for tonight
It will be all over in the morning.
Wednesday, 20 February 2008
I passed
My people, i passed.
With all the shakara that paper 2 did to me, i passed. Now, i have to face writing my 20,000 word dissertation.
It has been a 2008 to remember already. So many things have happened to me this year and i know that God is looking down on me everyday, reminding me all the time that i will be ok, no matter what the night brings, it will be all over in the morning.
Meanwhile, a belated valentines day to you all. So what did you do on that day?
I spent mine in school and on the road back home (3.5hrs of driving), Olivia did not complain that she did not get anything though. That is why our thing works out so well. She is a blessing.
i have so much to tell you all but i am at work right now and it has been hectic to understate things. I must have aged 10yrs this morning alone.
I am finally back to popping in everyday now so keep checking in. I have loads for my people.
With all the shakara that paper 2 did to me, i passed. Now, i have to face writing my 20,000 word dissertation.
It has been a 2008 to remember already. So many things have happened to me this year and i know that God is looking down on me everyday, reminding me all the time that i will be ok, no matter what the night brings, it will be all over in the morning.
Meanwhile, a belated valentines day to you all. So what did you do on that day?
I spent mine in school and on the road back home (3.5hrs of driving), Olivia did not complain that she did not get anything though. That is why our thing works out so well. She is a blessing.
i have so much to tell you all but i am at work right now and it has been hectic to understate things. I must have aged 10yrs this morning alone.
I am finally back to popping in everyday now so keep checking in. I have loads for my people.
Tuesday, 5 February 2008
Yawah - Paper 2!
As we got into the massive exam hall, we all noticed that our seat numbers had been re-shuffled again. It was not enough that the space between each student was as much as 5m, we were made to move sits.
Anyway, i was confident that i would nail paper 2, after all, paper 1 was the paper i least prepared for and i walked it.
"You can start now", the lecturer belowed. I had a plan, since the paper was in 3 sections and we were meant to answer 4 questions in 2hrs, i was going to answer 2 questions in section A, 1 from section B and 1 from section C.
Omo, when i open the first page, i read all the questions in section A and thought, wahala don come. I skip section A and move to section B but bros, nothing for your boy! Quickly, i move go section C then saw a question i could answer and started with that one.
By the time i finished that question, i went back to section A. By now, fluid had started flowing through my brain again so i was getting into the exams. Each question i must add has babies ie question 1 will have questions 1a, b, c, d, e, f and g. I answered question 1 of section A but got stuck on question 1f so i moved to question 2 of section A. By the time i got to question 2e, alarm begin blow, brain stop to dey function again.
Check am, as i no fit proceed with question 2, i move go section B, where i answer the question half way before brain jump start again. I quickly go back go question 1 to finish off but as i dey on the last question, i heard "Drop your pens"! Say who die! I try write again but the lecturer give me one dirty look, i drop the pen.
Inside me, i started to panick until i reach outside when i see people dey complain sey na only 2 questions dem fit answer. Overall, i know i will pass but i was caught out by this exam. At last weeks lectures, the number of my colleagues that have filled out mitigating circumstances forms don number 8, complaining they were ill, too busy with work etc and had problems studying.
This friday, we will all be given our results.
Pray for me
Anyway, i was confident that i would nail paper 2, after all, paper 1 was the paper i least prepared for and i walked it.
"You can start now", the lecturer belowed. I had a plan, since the paper was in 3 sections and we were meant to answer 4 questions in 2hrs, i was going to answer 2 questions in section A, 1 from section B and 1 from section C.
Omo, when i open the first page, i read all the questions in section A and thought, wahala don come. I skip section A and move to section B but bros, nothing for your boy! Quickly, i move go section C then saw a question i could answer and started with that one.
By the time i finished that question, i went back to section A. By now, fluid had started flowing through my brain again so i was getting into the exams. Each question i must add has babies ie question 1 will have questions 1a, b, c, d, e, f and g. I answered question 1 of section A but got stuck on question 1f so i moved to question 2 of section A. By the time i got to question 2e, alarm begin blow, brain stop to dey function again.
Check am, as i no fit proceed with question 2, i move go section B, where i answer the question half way before brain jump start again. I quickly go back go question 1 to finish off but as i dey on the last question, i heard "Drop your pens"! Say who die! I try write again but the lecturer give me one dirty look, i drop the pen.
Inside me, i started to panick until i reach outside when i see people dey complain sey na only 2 questions dem fit answer. Overall, i know i will pass but i was caught out by this exam. At last weeks lectures, the number of my colleagues that have filled out mitigating circumstances forms don number 8, complaining they were ill, too busy with work etc and had problems studying.
This friday, we will all be given our results.
Pray for me
Wednesday, 30 January 2008
Exam Gist
As the days rolls by and the year counter increases, i find it a lot more difficult to assimulate what i am reading. In the words of a good friend, 'brain don soak oil'.
I found that it takes me longer to read a page than it used to take before so i devised a strategy based on my personal stocastic analysis of the past question papers for the past five years. I decided to ignore reading some particular topics and concentrate on others that i was comfortable with.
I had two papers to write in one day and was particularly concerned with paper one but quite confident of paper two.
The exam was to take place in one of the many university sports halls and boy did they space us out. 17 people in a sports hall well spaced out so no matter how long your neck was, koko for you. Come see grown ups dey sweat.
Paper 1 was 3 questions to answer 2 but believe me e no be like dat. Each question had about 7 sub questions and boy were they loaded.
Paper 1 turned out to be so easy for me, i could not believe it. I came out thinking 'bring on paper 2', but boy did paper 2 show me. Not just me o, everybody.
Paper 2 gist go follow....
I found that it takes me longer to read a page than it used to take before so i devised a strategy based on my personal stocastic analysis of the past question papers for the past five years. I decided to ignore reading some particular topics and concentrate on others that i was comfortable with.
I had two papers to write in one day and was particularly concerned with paper one but quite confident of paper two.
The exam was to take place in one of the many university sports halls and boy did they space us out. 17 people in a sports hall well spaced out so no matter how long your neck was, koko for you. Come see grown ups dey sweat.
Paper 1 was 3 questions to answer 2 but believe me e no be like dat. Each question had about 7 sub questions and boy were they loaded.
Paper 1 turned out to be so easy for me, i could not believe it. I came out thinking 'bring on paper 2', but boy did paper 2 show me. Not just me o, everybody.
Paper 2 gist go follow....
Thursday, 24 January 2008
i don come again
i don come again oh, i don come again oh, mama agnesoo, wayo, wayo wayo. Citizens of blogville, i am back and back with so much to get off my rather large and continuously expanding chest.
I have finished my exams and now ready to have better relations with my people.
First, make i chop then come sidon begin throwey gist.....
I'll be back
I have finished my exams and now ready to have better relations with my people.
First, make i chop then come sidon begin throwey gist.....
I'll be back
Wednesday, 23 January 2008
It Pays to be Nigerian
A man died & goes to hell.There he finds that there is a different hell for each country and decides he'll pick the least painful to spend his eternity.He goes to the German hell & asks, "What do they do here?" He is told "first they put you in an electric chair for an hour. Then they lay you on a bed of nails for another hour. Then the German devil comes in and whips you for the rest of the day”. The man does not like the sound of that at all so he moves on. He checks out the USA hell as well as the Russian hell and many more. He discovers that they are all similar to the German hell.Then he comes to the Nigerian hell and finds that there is a long queue of people waiting to get in...Amazed, he asks, "What do they do here?" He is told "first they put you in an electric chair for an hour, and then they lay you on a bed of nails for another hour. The Nigerian devil comes in & whips you for the rest of the day."But that is exactly the same as all the other hells, why are there so many people waiting to get in?" asks the man. A concerned fellow calls him aside and said,"Because there is never any electricity so the electric chair doesn't work.The nails were paid for but were never supplied by the contractor, so the bed is comfortable to sleep on..And the Nigerian devil used to be a civil servant,so he comes in, signs his time sheet and goes back home for other business!!"................. IT PAYS TO BE A NIGERIAN
Thursday, 10 January 2008
This is 2008!
Had a few minutes to rest my eyes from the VDU before i start jacking again so i thot i should drop by and show some respect to you all.
It has been a very busy 2008 already but i trust God that things will soon settle back to normal once i finish these exams. Believe me, reading at an old age is quite a task. God please enhance my retentive memory.
Nikkisab, thank you for dropping by. I trust God has a barnfull of blessings for you in 2008.
To all my loyal friends and to you, yes you, don't look over your shoulder, it is you i am refering to, thank you for being a part of my 2007 and i hope that your impact in my life in 2008 will be even more positive.
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU ALL.
Josy; thanks for all the encouragement!
Throwey!!!!!!!
It has been a very busy 2008 already but i trust God that things will soon settle back to normal once i finish these exams. Believe me, reading at an old age is quite a task. God please enhance my retentive memory.
Nikkisab, thank you for dropping by. I trust God has a barnfull of blessings for you in 2008.
To all my loyal friends and to you, yes you, don't look over your shoulder, it is you i am refering to, thank you for being a part of my 2007 and i hope that your impact in my life in 2008 will be even more positive.
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU ALL.
Josy; thanks for all the encouragement!
Throwey!!!!!!!
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